Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Probably another rubbish post?

Haha! The title was my exact thinking before i start writing this post! haha! Well, just browse through lexy, sin yee and cloudy's blog! Why nady dun have one man! TSK! haha! So i feel like i need to update something since so long time we haven't meet up! Haha!

Well, these few weeks I was staying in Malaysia. Of cuz i'm still in M'sia now. But how to describe, the lifestyle here is really kind of relax compared to Singapore. Haha! I love driving around but I hate working for my cousin's wife. Omg! can u believe that a diploma holder only get RM 3.85 per hour and still need to work like a dog! OMG! Really so irritating! actually I was planning to rest few weeks at home and maybe go back to Pagesetters and see whether they need designer. But then few weeks ago, my cousin was talking to me in his place in my mum office. I was standing somewhere else, not facing him. He asked me to go and help his wife. I pretend nvr hear it. But too bad, the next morning, she called. I was like SHIT! SHIT! SHIT! I was forced to wake up! (really hate ppl call me during my sleep man! Especially ppl I dun like! tsk! haha!) Then my she said she desperately need designer, cuz she just sacked the malay designer and only left one designer. She said she can't tahan that designer anymore. And her previous worker who agreed to come back din turn up. So, sigh~ She already talked like that I can't even say no rite? Sigh~ So, I went to help. But she din mentioned about the pay at all! So, I also dun really bother la. I dun really follow time. Haha! Late to work, lunch time 1.5 hour! haha! really ultimate. but I really duno she count by hour! WALAO WEI! Two years ago she gave me RM20 per day ok! So, april I think i work for two weeks more, I get RM 288.56! And she din pay me that RM0.56! Omg! I'm gg to faint! Well, I dun really feel like helping her cuz of my stupid cousin k! really wan to bodyslam that whole family! All so yong sui! Working there everything is urgent and unorganized. Somemore irritating client keep pestering u as if i only do her work! TSK! I must say I enjoy the life there but working there really sucks! But the colleagues there all very nice la. Just that the pay sucks, never ending job order and irritating client. My cousin wife is good to me as in attitude but seriously can't believe she give me this type of pay and like hinting why two of us working so slow! OMG! Really!

The jie jie sitting beside me is just the same age with my brother. 30 years old, but totally like 24 only! I got shocked when she said she wan to fetch her son! haha! She is really a good example to learn for actually. She never study design before, she learned all those software in the previous company. All her stuff looks professional, and she is really a good-tempered and meticulous person. How i wish i can be like her, good-tempered.

Well, i haven't tell my cousin's wife I wanna resign but i already declare to all my colleagues: Sorry, close order! haha! Since she found a malay girl designer and I heard that 1st of june another one is coming, so i can go. i'm just there to help out!

Convocation is coming. Next week. I dunno what to wear and got nothing really formal to wear too. Well, that's not so important. Just that suddenly feel kind of depress. Once the convocation is over, we might not see each other that often. I keep asking myself, will we still the same? As in the relationship between five of us. I'm scared. As u guys have heard thousands times U guys are so important to me. I'm really so glad to find four soul mates in my life. Well, I dun really believe in FOREVER. I really dun believe it. I dun think those ppl who saying FOREVER this word can really do what they said. Like the fans to their Idols. I dun say I love TVXQ Forever but i would say i appreciate them even one day they disband(CHOY CHOY CHOY!) I would remember them as one of my favourite band. But guys, if i happen to write frens forever in ur card or letter or whatever, I mean it and I tell myself I MUST really do it till the day I die. Think that magic word only apply to four of u! haha! We are more like family member more than frens i think. I dun wan us to be like stranger. I duno what to do but I will try hard to gather all of us every month! I do missed those days in TP, everything! So memorable. Omg, i think i would cry after the convocation man! Shit! haha!

Well, I might continue study next year. The july semester my brother said a lot of course not available, also a bit too rush to study on july. So might start next year. This period of time, it's good to improve my broken english, learn more stuff and tidy up my portfolio. Ok, damn tired now. I hate working! tsk! I m gonna quit soon! See u guys next week and hug together cry ok! hahah! :)

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Can't breath...

I'm sorry guys! Now only i update my blog. I think this is the very right timing to write. I m very depress now. Probably after this post, I would feel better.

Recently, after came back from yogyakarta, (Tell u guys about my trip in my next post with pic! hahah! but have to wait ok! Haha!) I m scared. Really scared. My dad went to china the week after i went holidays. So whole week stay in Malaysia accompany my mum.

The sentence i hate the most now is ppl asking me "what are you going to do after graduate?" Seriously, Hate it! I'm lost! I dunno what should I study. I'm now in a corner, with all my family and frens around me, asking me the same question, especially my sis! She keep forcing me to choose now! Yes! I know that's for my own good, but really, I'm lost. I feel like I'm going mad, whenever she asked me, i just keep quiet. Even I ask my dad, he was like either no answer, or dunno what is he talking about then walk back to his room. I m really damn stress now. I see myself holding my head sitting at a dark corner. I can't find an exit to run away, with all of them behind me forcing me to go out. I m lost. I dunno what to do and what should i do. it's a kind of burden to click in those website to search for sch.

I'm so regret now. I should be more hardworking. now my result is like a piece of shit. I really wonder m i suitable to study design? I got no talent at all. I should be more hardworking. Now this kind of result, who the hell will accept me? With probably the most scary portfolio, i dun think there's any school wan to accept me. Where to go? Australia? I wanted too. I dun like to study in either NTU or NUS. It's just another round of discrimination. Even I want I dun think I can get in too. i really can't breath. I hate that kind of stress.

I was sitting at my living room just now, cried with the sad music. I just need to release all out. I can't do it in front of anyone in my family. I know they are more worried! But I really dunno what to do but cry out. I'm such a useless bum! Always made ppl worry for me. Even my health. Really, the first time i feel so helpless. I'm drowning, and i can't see any helps in front of me. What should I do? I dun wan to disappoint my family. I wonder if I m suitable to study oversea with my lousy english.

Ok enough! Should stop it! I feel much better after throwing all my "rubbish" here. Just ignore ok! :)

Well, these few days I was watching korean drama at home. Beethoven virus and on air. Beethoven virus is a story about a orchestra team. How they fight for their dream. It's nice becuz the actor jang geun suk is handsome! haha! I m envy because they have a dream, which i dun have. And really envy them can fight for their dream. But the love story in that drama sucks! Really kns the female main role! Such a young handsome guy dun wan, in the end fell in love with the old uncle! Walao wei! Not nice! Tsk! Haha!

On air, to me, it's nice. Long ago i wanted to watch it. The story is about how the entertaiment industry working in Korea. An arrogant top star, a very famous storywriter, a new but good director and a caring star manager. the love story between them are nice especially the director and the storywriter. Haha! they are so cute! I love the OST too. The one sided love by Park Yong Ha which act as the director and If.. by Naby(Too bad not nady! haha).. Really very sad song. Shit man! Always like these kind of songs.. Sigh.. But that's why i love Kpop too, their touching music. If u feel too bored can take a look at this drama too. To me is interesting cuz after this drama only I know, to produce a drama really needs a lot of effort. Everyone put in a lot of effort just for the drama. And now i think it is so unfair for the audience to say not nice when they dun even see how hard they work. Even to me the story is not nice, but now i learn to respect every of them. They are always in a hard time!

Wah such a long post. Ok, well, just an update. i m currently working in my cousin wife's print house. Doing boring design job. Although i dun really feel like working there, but too bad la, she only left one designer there, and very hard to find graphic designer in my hometown. So I just go and help her. Sigh.. But wednesday I will go singapore for the swimming class! haha! Hope can meet u guys la. Ok, after this post I should feel better. All my tears, go back to ur house and have a long sleep k! goodnight! all of u! :)

Friday, March 27, 2009

Kkotboda Namja!!!!




Yes! Recently I'm addicted to this Korean Drama - 花样男子! OMG! I got another new bf now! hahaha! Although Chang Min, Xiah, and Min Ho still my bf! (Aiya! Dewy got so many! I can't have four meh?!) Yes! My new bf is... KIM HYUN JOONG! Hahahah! OMG! He is really very charming k! My yun ji hoo!!! Before watching this show, I knew that he is Jae joong and Micky's Best fren! He is also SS501 Leader. Not bad la that band.

Well, his personality really like Jae Joong! No wonder they are best fren now! I tot he is that kind very cool type, sekali like jae joong! Very funny. I m watching 我们结婚了now! Hahaha! He is damn funny and Huang Bo really very pretty! Heehee! Love their couple match! Haha!

Seriously I need to recommand u guys to watch Kkotboda namja! Really very nice to watch! although my Yun Ji Hoo very poor thing, but besides that this show is worth to watch. I like their background, then those costume the actors or actress wear. Next week Korea going to show the last two epidsode. Although I know Ji hoo can't win Jan di's heart, but really very sad that those ppl he likes all not by his side. Awww.. So poor thing. But I should say, hyun joong first time to be actor very successful. He really suits yun ji hoo very well which sometimes makes me think yun ji hoo = Kim Hyun Joong! hahaha! Aww~ going to finish soon! Sigh~ Really hope to watch more man! Haha!

Okok! Back to something related to me! haha! Diploma show finally started yesterday! But seriously i think this year dip show sucks man! Really dunno what to do! Then all so not organise! Even the guest also dunno what to do! I really prefer to have personal panel so that ppl can view ur work better what! Sigh~ Dunno what are they have in their mind man!

Dip show coming which means I'm going to graduate soon. Sigh~ I really dunno what should I do for my further study! Continue study Design or something else? What to study? Where to study? Really have to no idea!! I'm lost! and recently family matters also drive me crazy! I really can't stand that stupid idiot cousin man! walao wei! My father's hard earning money all dump in to pay his stupid debt! OMG! And pls my ah mah! Can u stop complaning how pathetic ur grandson is! Can't u see my father is more pathetic man!!!! Seriously I really need to bodyslam my cousin! Walao wei! IT'S UR DEBT K! WHY SHOULD MY FATHER BEAR THIS FOR U?! Sigh~ My poor father.. Sigh~

Well, dunno what else to say. Really, this matter spoilt all my mood! Ok! Should post something happier! Ok! Enjoy the photos~



Friday, March 20, 2009

Update la!

Ok ok! Since my two little fans keep shouting at the chatter box, Hehe! I'm here to update my blog! But Chan Sin Yee! U also nvr update hor! Haha! Lexy why still jonghyun husband on top?! See u also nvr update! Micky is going to jump down from han jiang k!

Ok! Well, actually dun need to update! haha! Cuz I almost see all my readers everyday man! All my mei liang xin's Malaysia frens, aisk~ Too disappointed man! Tsk tsk tsk!

Well, let's start my long story of eating salah medicine first! haha! I know u guys know what happen la! Just bear with it k! Igot not much things to update mah! Hahah!

Ok, last two weeks, finally everything over! I was free to go for another consultation - the neurosurgeon that I mentioned before - brain scan. It was tuesday! few days before I just experienced terrible skin allergy and got injection on monday! Ouch! Tuesday morning, me, my mummy, my godmother and the little boy - Li Ge set off early like 7.30am to Melaka Pantai hospital! Seriously i dunno how many times I go to hospital for check up man! tsk! we reached there earlier than our appointment time, and wait for almost one and half hour for the doctor. Omg! really wait too long! tsk! Then finally my turn! I went in with all my X-rays, MRI, CT Scan "photo" of my beautiful back spine. Of course, I need to tell my long long story about my back lo! then he did some check up like lift up hands, legs, then close my eyes while standing (think he is checking my balancing) He said everything normal. But the problem I mentioned before - My back brain (Well, I return back all my biology liao! dunno what does it called)'s position really lower than normal ppl but that is born to be like that. And he said looks like this is not the cause of my severe backpain! So he suggested me to go and consult a neurologist which is just few room away. (still wan to write letter! haha!) then inside that clinic DAMN alot of ppl! Omg! then i m the last patient. while waiting to go in and check, I went to consult another doctor which is skin specialist. She is a very soft, gentle kind ladies. She is Chinese. She gave me two bottle of cream to get rid all dark spot on my arms and they are so effective! I can feel it! Much different than before! then I went back ad wait for consultation. the neurologist is a soft malay uncle! Forgot to mention, the first doctor is a Indian man! See, i consulted three different races doctors! haha!

Then when I went into the room, the doctor did some similiar check up and of course need to repeat my story! Seriously I'm considering to record my story down man! then he said need to scan my brain. I'm the last patient so have to wait for few hours, so we went down to the canteen and ate our lunch there. Then about 4.30pm finally my turn! The nurse "paste" i think about 20 wyers on my head and ask my to close my eyes relax on the bed. After 15 minutes, she asked me to call my mum in. After tat scan my hair damn disgusting, because of the gel she apply on to stick the wyers! then the doctor came and said oh, it's brain cells problem. Some brain cells are inactive. Then I have to take three months medicine to recover. He kept saying "slowly u will recover" like how adult bluff kids! I was like Err.. Ok..

then I followed the intruction, took for those medicine for two weeks. I'm so sorry to chan chan and Lexy! cuz I keep sleeping during our Dong Bang trip! I really can't than man! too sleepy after taking medicine! then! Here's the bigger problem! After two weeks, while I was at Chan chan hometown, I realised that my hands and legs keep shivering! Lexy and chan chan also noticed tat! Then I went back and tell my mum cuz I suspect is the side effect of certain medicine. That day my legs were numb till I can't walk properly! my mum was shocked like what! Keep saying I looked like old lady now, do whatever in slow motion! Omg! I was really panic man! So monday went to consult my family doctor! I found the TRUTH! Thanks ar, the neurologist! HE CAN'T FIND THE REASON CAUSE MY BACK PAIN, HE TOT I GOT PSYCHOLOGY PROBLEM! SO HE GAVE ME THOSE MEDICINE USUALLY FOR PSYCHOLOGY PATIENT! OMG! WTH! which means i have been taking wrong medicine for two weeks! SHIT SHIT SHIT! I keep shivering even till now k! Now i need to buy medicine to stop the shivering! And of course! I need to consult another doctor!

I dunno what happen to me man! always so "LUCKY"! Kena cheated my two doctors! TSK! And my toufu body can be more healthy or not! Now financial crisis can! Stop it lar! Walao wei! When r u going to recover my lovely back spine?!! And these few days,so busy preparing for the dip show i dunno how many times i kena my mum scold, cuz i'm not supposed to anyhow walk, my family doctor suggest me to rest more and walk less and scared I will faint halfway! I'm so dizzy for the whole week man! SIGH~~~~ Hope can recover soon la!

Hereby i need to thank lexy! Thanks honey dewy for take care of me and accompany me for this whole week! i knew u r tired! so sorry! Next week my sis (ur gan jie) treat k! We shall have a gathering all together! cuz my sis till now still haven't see who is NADIA KAMIL AND LIM SIEW YUN!!! hahaha! And lexy, dun bother what that sai said! I borrow u money cuz I can afford to help and i understand u do need help! So dun be paiseh to borrow if u really need k! if i can't help i will tell u! So atm Hee-haw is standing here for FOUR of you! and all my money are belongs to my banker! hahaha! So ok la! I can borrow u guys means I got extra for myself! So dun need to feel guilty cuz u guys still need to return me back what! hahaha! So dun worry k!

Ok, feel dizzy again! time to take the CORRECT medicine and sleep! Everyone jia you k! after next week's Dip show we can finally rest! Let's go cycling again~ :)

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Finally it's over!

Yeah yeah!! it's over! now still left the presentation part which I dun really care! Hahah! Just think of go in and anyhow crap! hahah!

Oh ya! forgot! My apologize! Really long time never update already! but seriously I was busy like hell for the past few weeks! But thank god it's over! I manage to done all my stuff on time but with the bad quality of cuz! hahah!

Well, these few days were really relaxing~ Although after I done my stuff I dun really feel happy but I feel relief. Unhappy perhaps due to my lousy works. I know I will kena shoot like dunno how. But I dun really care now, as long as I pass! hahah!

Just like what I read le xin blog, yes! i'm gonna thanks all of those ppl who assisted me to do this mission impossible! I promised her we must put this into our future album. Hahah!

To my dear honey dewy - Le Xin! Thanks so much for teaching me to draw different perspectives! And sometimes even draw for me although u already struggling for ur project! Really thanks so much! I will remember those days we do our works in McDonalds, spying what ppl talking about, eating our favourite McDonalds' Breakfast, drawing like mad, sharing ur disgusting dreams, sit from breakfast to lunch and so on! Really so memorable! And till the final stage, we stayed in the com lab with chan chan and nady, singing and dancing like mad, form a shinee girls, singing shinee's song and TVXQ's Mirotic, take cab together~ Really, it will be the most memorable memory. I'm sorry if i did something that make u angry, and also thanks for tolerate my bad temper! :)

To my dear chan chan - Sin Yee! Thanks so much for all ur help. All ur encourage words and email really helped me to move forward! Thanks for always organize outing like morning Ponyo's movie! Oh man! that was my first time watching movie so early! hahah! But it was nice! I will remember those days we went to ur house, go shopping together, go printing and help each other and also everything happened in the com lab! Really that last few weeks I was stress but really enjoyed! Thanks for accompany me to be mad girl and sing and dance in com lab! Thanks for almost everyday gather shinee girls in MSN or Skype, practise singing, sharing videos! If that few nights without those video, I really fell asleep liao! Hahah! Then, so sorry if my bad temper affects u! I can't tolerate my own bad temper too! hahah! And thanks for all ur help during this FYP! I'm sorry if my mounting skill spoilt ur things! :p

To my darling cloudy - Siew Yun! Although we were in the same class, but really looks like i dun see u that often! hahah! Well, u r really the hardworking girl who always make me so stress, but this kind of stress actually help to move forward! thanks! Thanks my dear for always tolerate my bad temper and comfort me when I think i'm way behind the final line. Thanks for ur encouraging SMS and email! Although we dun see each other that often during that period but I know u were really stress! Well, just wan to tell u, next time if u work outside, dun have to give urself too much stress ok! U must know how to destress! I still remember that day u cried in front of me! really shock me man! but i know what i can do is not stopping u from crying, cuz i know u are release all ur stress! do hang out more with all of us! u see! Shinee girls dun even feel stress! everyday happy like what! hahah! Thanks so much for all ur encouragement! Although U might deny, but I tell u seriously ur work is nice! dun always claim that it's not! U must be confident to ur own work ok! :)

To my dear master - Nadia! Thanks nady for ur very first treat to me, the pillow snack! It really tastes good! Well, dun feel bad to borrow money from me! I know U are broke for those printing and binding, I understand that's y I m happy to help! All those snacks I treated u were the ENCOURAGEMENT to u! Cuz I know, nothing else can give u energy except FOOD! Hahahah! That's y I buy food for u! During those days U were in India, we really missed u and worried for u! But it was so memorable that everyday log on to ur blog and see whether u update anything. Then also about ur love story there la! hahah! Thanks for always tolerate my bad temper and also tolerate SHINee girls awful singing and dancing in that room! We dun mean to irritate u, just wan to relax, that's our way to destress! hahah! But I should say, ur work really superb! I'm so glad to be ur pet man! With u in our gang we really feel so proud! We have talented photographer, talented illustrators (Lexin and Siewyun), and talented ENTERTAINERS (Chan Chan And Me la! hahah!) Oh ya, still got talented maid wai sun! hahah! I'm very happy to be in this group! :)

Well, Mr Chan Wai Sun, sorry ar, no dear hor! hahah! But I should really thank u for tolerate my bad temper, always pei he all our funny ideas, and also willing to be our maid! hahah! thanks so much la~ :)

Then, I should thanks to my cousin's wife who is called Evelyn too! hahah! Thanks for her help, without her help I can't print my book out! and also AZMIR! Although u can't see! But Thanks so much for helping me adjust the alignment one by one! Really thanks a lot! :)

Then, thanks to the aunties in the print shop, Fanny jie jie and Sharon Aunty! Although the other one doesn't help much and sometimes spoilt my things, but nvm, still thanks to her! Really thanks for their help if not i think I really can die man! Their bloody boss should really give them OT fee la! tsk!

Also, need to thank Sandy, the classic binder boss! hahah! Thanks for her patient and also her professional help! Next time if I go I will bring u coke! :)

And not to forget, Thanks to my family, my jie jie, mummy, 6th aunt for sewing the pouch for me, my jiu mu for sewing the table cloth and bag for me and my wan neng daddy for doing the box and measure for the bag! Thanks to my jie jie for sewing the five stones and tolerate all my bad temper! Really thanks a lot! :)

OK! Damn long! But I forgot to tell u guys who is Shinee Girls! Hahah! Shinee girls was form like few weeks ago by me, le xin and Sin yee! Cloudy still waiting for audition, but i guess she can totally join us la! Hahah! We sang more korean songs la! Hahah! Oh ya! ah chan and lexy thanks for so ren zhen learning korean songs! Now seems like everyone is obsessed with Kpop, Shinee and TVXQ! Hahah! See! Now U guys should know why I like hor?! hahah!

OK! I NEED TO DECLARE HERE! AHERM! CHAN SIN YEE AND WONG LE XIN! LONG TIME AGO I'M TVXQ'S FANS! LEXY U SAID U LIKE U-KNOW SINCE 2005 DOESN'T COUNT CUZ U DIN BUY THEIR ALBUM! HAHA! I WENT TO THEIR CONCERT AND BOUGHT ALMOST ALL THEIR ALBUM! I NEED TO DECLARE THIS, CHANG MIN IS MINE! XIAH IS MY SECONDARY SO CANNOT SNATCH WITH ME TOO! THEN I GUESS U GUYS WON'T SNATCH MIN HO FROM SHINEE WITH ME, NOT TO WORRY.

Just in case u watch the hua yang nan zi, I NEED TO DECLARE THE KIM HYUN JOONG WHO ACT AS YUN JI HU IS MINE TOO! Hahahah! Dun ever snatch with me! Hahaha! must declare first just in case! hahah! Omg! Hua Yang nan zi really nice to watch!

Ok, gotto go and watch my drama and later TVXQ session and also shinee session! hahah! So busy! :)

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Very odd wonderful day!

HAHAHAHA! You should be wondering why is it a very odd wonderful day! Ok! I dunno the reason too! Probably i'm getting more and more negative as I was before! Shit man! I dun wan to but I think when someone is growing older, u will start to think more, isn't it? Before that we were a pure and innocent kid, but as we grow out we experienced different problems and that cause us to think more and sometimes think too much! Hahaha..

OK!OK! Stop it! This should be a happy post! Well, Let's back to the topic! Today, I SUPPOSED to wake up at 9am and tell myself, do something to consult, but dunno kena curse or what, 9am woke up, but very tired then keep lying and sleeping till 11am! SHIT! SHIT! I was like gave up already! Ok, not consulting, and I totally too relax! Haha.. Then went to sch and have lunch with honey dewy! I found that "oh, today is TP open house ar? I think I won't realize that if i din step into the sch!" Hahah! Then i was waiting for honey dewy in a room, but then i met cloudy first. Then honey dewy came, we chat, ate our lunch and do our work. Then we shift to another room and continue the same activities! Nady only came for the DAIM chocolate then stay in library alone! (TSK! SO ANTI-SOCIAL!) Hahaha! Then I did two pages in the classroom which i think is a good progress already man! Better than nothing rite?! Hahaha! Think this way really feel better man! Hahah..

Then, me and lexy went to white sand for dinner as my aunt not cooking today! Then we chose Wan zai to have our dinner cuz those pic really too attractive! OMG! WE TOTALLY ENJOYED THE DINNER LIKE WHAT! That honey dewy dunno Hmmm~ Hmmm~ How many times! We two keep commentting how nice the food is during the dinner and finish everything! Seriously everything!!! OMG MAN! SUCH A ENJOYABLE DINNER! After that we walked out to take bus back, the breezy wind outside really make us feel so good! Then we walked to the bus waiting area happily discussing will u hold ur father's hand with finger cross! (Ok, that sounds gross to me, but we really saw an uncle, holding hands with a gal who looked like his daughter! Not kid ok! Is already teenager! walao!) Then without waiting too long like less than 2 minutes, the bus came! wah! Really damn lucky! I keep telling lexy, something wrong! can't be this lucky! What's the catch? OMG! really so scared! Then the whole journey only took us like 10 minutes! Wah! So early reach home? I was telling lexy would we step on dog shit when we alight? We can't be so lucky! What's the catch? Hahahahah!

Then when i reach home, my aunt got some left over CHEESECAKES from another aunt! WALAO WEI! WAHT HAPPEN TODAY MAN! hahahaha! Can't believe i'm so lucky! and totally so happy! And till 12am, nothing bad happen to me! Whoa!!! So good! Ok! this will be my wonderful day!

Yes, that might be small little things to u! Actually, what I wan to say, happy or not is we, ourselves to decide! To me, if today is a nice weather I will feel happy too! Cuz I'm a too negative thinker(although not in front of u guys la!) but then I told myself I should find something to make myself happy! We are human being so we can control whether we wan to laugh or cry! If I'm sad I will cry it out, keep it yourself is not healthy too! So, to me, to watch a nice singing or dancing performance, bought a new cd, went movie or shopping with my frens(well, as long as with my frens), or even a nice weather will make me happy! Of cuz music affect me the most la! So I choose to listen more upbeat songs which makes me feel happier!

FYP is really sickening man! Everyone is damn stress now! I'm stress too! Scared I can't finish, but I know, if i'm not in good mood i can't draw something good! So, the most important thing, find something that can make u happy before u face all those shitty stuff! Remember this ok!

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Ok, bad things now! Above is my odd wonderful day! Below is negative one! Hahah! Pls be informed!

Although is so bad to say this, but recently, I really getting more and more fed up with my bloody sis! I really can't tahan her anymore man! She is getting more and more annoying and irritating! OMG! Pls man, NTU! accept me or i will fly off to australia! I should live alone! Everytime she go home first or i stay in the room alone i feel damn happy la! I dunno what's wrong! Just that I find her very annoying! A lot of habits i can't tahan! And she just did it to me! Everyweek go home she will ask me to bring something back, saying that her bag very heavy and full! HER HEAD LA! If hers one is heavy, then I mine is what? Walao! U dunno I got back problem is it? Still everyday act nice in front of others! At home u rather watch TVXQ's concert like thousand times than help me to clean the house! I'm really sick of being a maid man! All her job is just act cute in front of my mum which i really feel like puke everytime! Last time she said she dislike my brother, but when he came back last time, keep fighting and act cute in front of him! Walao wei! totally buay tahan man! U know how old u r or not? Even my dad also get fed up ok! almost 27 years old still jumping here and there! Walao! I knew my father would say that! Hahaha! I think that's the reason why ppl said I looked older, cuz i really dun like to 撒娇in front of my parents! I just felt disgusted especially seeing somebody always do these! I told myself!! NONONONONONONO!!! Never ever do that man! OMG! Super long story! I confess she is nice as a sister but she can be damn irritating too!

Ok should stop it man! If i were to write about her, seriously, i need to write very long man! and I guess u guys won't believe it and thought that I just want to grab more attention! Pls! I tell u! NO! TOTALLY! I asked myself! I CAN LIVE ALONE! As i was ALWAYS alone during sec sch days! So well trained already, I already told myself, my job is only to be fillial to my parents and THAT's IT! Sometimes really thinking whether they understand me! They thought they know me, but pls! NO! Totally not! It's really tiring, that's what i can say. Perhaps I understand now why my dad suddenly react that way to my mum, probably like me and my sis, cannot take it too many things of her! Really family matter, sigh, one day when i'm free, I can write a damn long post about it man! sigh~

Sigh, no time to bother all that! CONCENTRATE ON FYP PLS!!!!! Ok! Should stop it! Find something to cheer u up ok!! Yes!! Music!! Yes!! My favourite! Ok! So happy can go home alone again tmr and enjoy music all the way! That's also why I like to go home! cuz can listen to them for few hours! Hahaha! Yeah!!!! OK! See ya in next post! Jia You everyone!!!

(Ps. Lexy, I know u will say ur "roomate" worse! Yes! I agree! She is ULTIMATE LEVEL! cannot compare! If compare to ur "roomate" my sis is not too good though, but at least much better than that lunatic roomate! Hahahahaha!) :p

Friday, January 2, 2009

Happy 2009 people~

OMG! It's already 2009! I'm getting more and more panic about my project! I'm seriously so sorry to my tutor man! It's not like I dun wan to do, just that really dunno how! My drawing really sucks man! OK! Dun care already! I can do it! So everyone can do it also! Just remember our main purpose - PASS ONLY! Hahahaha!

It's already 2009, I can't believe that I'm going to be 21 years old! How i wish the time could turn back! How I wish I can be like a kid, just play and study! Normally we will think this way, but i know, always looking back is not a very good thing also! So, just look forward! I'm sure this will be a brand new start for us! We can't stop the time, so just tell myself! LIVE A HAPPY LIFE! Appreciate everything around us and do more charity work! That would be my purpose! I really dunno what should I study for my degree, now it's really not the right time to start working! Sigh~

Well, not much things to blabber, just to wish everyone around me have a wonderful 2009, forget every bad things happened before, stay healthy and happy! If we ourselves think we can make it! I'm sure we can! Jia you all my frens~ :)