Teng Teng Teng! Class time!

Aherm... Everybody pls sit at ur own place, listen (actually should be read) carefully what I'm going to teach today! Especially my best frens, Lexy, Ah Chan, and Cloudy!

Ok, today's lecture is about life. I'm sorry I shall mix my language ok..

Aherm.. Ok, well, recently there are some unhappy thing happen. As the Oldest (T.T) among u guys, I think I need to do counseling to u guys.. I hope after reading this page, u will start thinking and I hope this is useful to u!

Well, as u all know, I experienced depression before. It was a period that I would never never want to go back. I knew how terrible is the feeling is. I kept crying, dunno whether the next minute, my mum would commit suicide, dunno whether my parents would divorce, dunno what should i do. I even think of what if i die, will they get together again? But I'm glad, I was able to THINK! T-H-I-N-K! The magic word! If I dun start thinking, maybe I might not sitting here and writting blog. I learned a lot of things thru thinking.

Nobody can control ppl's life. The only driver of urself is urself. U wan to lead a happy life or sad life is ur own decision. So I asked myself, if I can only live for 30 years, I only left 10 years more. I dun want when I look back as a soul, or think back, there's nothing I'm happy with, all sad scene. I always wonder how would my funeral be, would they cry or laugh? Or nobody would come as they dun treat me as fren? I'm really curious. I want by that time, I have somebody to 舍不得, I want me can't bear with my happy memory. I dun wan till the last moment, I'm still crying. So, I realize, how important n powerful thinking is! I decided to live for myself (as in not self-centred), dun torture myself, live a happy life. I learned to find all little things that would make me happy like buy CDsss, (that's where my money gone.. T.T) finding when is my TVXQ's album going to release, help someone! All those little little things that will makes me feel, I'm glad to live on this wonderful world with all nice music, nice food, nice frens.. Learned not to cover urself with negative thoughts. (Although I will still depress sometimes) My method to get rid of depression is to listen to sad songsss, cried till I can't cry anymore, back to sleep. The next day, tell myself, everything is over! I will start all over again!

This time I should apologize to everyone! I'm the culprit of this incident! I shouldn't be like this.. I was really angry after Ah chan said not going. At that moment, I really felt kena cheated. But then I step back n think! (Again, the magic word! Step back n think!) I might be too childish. I spoilt ah chan's day, n make lexy n cloudy not happy. I'm sorry~ Then I knew some incidents going. Again I step back and see the whole pic, Ceh! NO BIG DEAL! It's just a miscommunication in between us. We played 传话游戏before. In the end always ends up with funny things. We can't transfer something exactly to others. So this create the misunderstanding. We might feel hurt but think the other way, if the same thing happen to me, how will u feel? Even I was hurt by my best fren but in my heart I knew, they are for my own good. I saw a sentence before. Good fren will only tell u good things; best fren will tell u the truth, although it's cruel, but they said this for ur own good. Try to think why they say this to us, if not dun treat us as best fren, they dun even bother to tell u! So, just think positively! I guess these few months we were too busy, lack of face to face chatting like last time, that's y seems like lost in something. Chatting is very powerful as we could understand each others more. Think back, these almost three years, we were really happy! So, dun let those small little things to destroy us! our frenship is strong! Haha.. We must prove it!

Well, I do hope u all understand what i'm saying.. As the oldest in our group i think I got the responsible to do this. Well, it's just a life lecture. Not shooting anyone! Pls dun 对号入座ar! I hope we will be happy as usual~ Now! Let's cheer for our frenship! :) Whee~ I love my frens~ :) Never left out! Princess!! :)

I need sometimes to think..

Hello ppl, sorry for late update.. Ok, the tile is quite sad.. I'm going to talk about that later.. Now, as i promised, i'm going to tell u guys about my mid-festival night! Haha..

Actually, that night not really fun.. cuz the organiser not really good at organizing the event.. But the fun thing is i get to play lantern like a kid! Yeah! actually i even did a lantern (or i should say a lamp?) for fuN!! :) Haha.. Nice?

I'm back in Pagesetters for around two weeks.. Working here is really a nice experience.. Last friday, we were holding a book launch for a poetry book at the old parliment house.. I was selling another title by the other guy as he had a reading session down stairs.. the sales not very good as the book launch before last year, so they just come for the reading session.. and guess what! I reached there only realize Felix is the speaker! Hahaha.. So coincidense.. He was so surprise to see me there but since i'm wearing Ethos book T-shirt, he knew I was working la.. Haha.. so nice to chat with him once again.. Then i rush here and there.. But had a nice, short quick dinner (leftover buffet! Haha..) I'm so sorry can't join my frens in east coast for BBQ, but the book launch really need my help.. So sorry, I believe we have a lot of chance next time! :) That day dunno whether Mr Fong was drunk, he gave everyone one day off, then i was making funny face with his daughter as i got no day off, then OMG! I think he saw it! haha.. He suddenly said, "Eh? Khai Xin, you got no day off hor? How ar?" then my lady boss said, "it's ok! We give her double pay today!!" YEah!! Haha.. although not much money but i felt warm-hearted.. :)

I'm seriously doing everything in Pagesetters, almost everything, so quite tiring but learned a lot of things. I'm happy to be with my colleagues again! :) But suddenly a lot of things falls on me! Have to finish before October.. I wonder I can do it.. Haha.. But I will try my best to work faster la.. Haha.. So tiring..

Today! I went to Anchorvale swimming pools swimming with my sis.. So enjoyable.. I love the swimming pools a lot! So fun! Also long time din swim le, so happy! :) But really tiring~ Zzzzz

haha! One day i must bring along Lexy, Cloudy and ah chan to go n play! Haha.. Trust me! It's fun!

Ok, finally back to my title.. Recently, maybe start holidays.. I start to rest my mind and think of a lot of things. Today, I'm not really happy, or actually can said is really angry to death.. Something happened. It's not that I'm petty, maybe u would think it's just a small thing.. But this is my 原哲问题。I confessed that I'm not a good-tempered person. In fact, I'm really a hot-tempered person. I just hate myself that I can't control myself. But this time, I'm really angry, not becuz of u said u dun wan to go, it's that how many times u promised us that u will surely join us, but in the end, last minute just say not joining. And even rejecting one by one.. Can u recall how u promised us? I'm angry of ur irresponsible not u not joing us ok! I'm just a normal person. 我的忍耐也是有极限的，现在已经到极限了。I really dun wan to do this to my best fren, but I'm sad when i treat ppl like my most precious one and I'm just nothing to them. Ok, I shall calm down.. I dunno how to deal with this.. I need to time to think, I need time to get over this.. Give me sometimes.. BTW, i'm saying this seriously, if u feel like gg home to accompany family members jsut go for it, dun stay here jsut becuz of we angry with u.. U should have more time with ur family members.. What we want is u should be happy all the time. I hope we enjoy every single trip. Not forcing to go any place. I guess it won't turn up nice..

And I really hate myself a lot! Can somebody tell me how to be a good daughter? I really dunno how? I hope one day I can be a daughter that my mum n dad will be proud of me. I just heard my mum said if not for us, my dad already divorce my mum.. That moment, although I'm not comfortable with this, but I knew my daddy loves us. But sometimes he can be really irritating.. That's also the reason why I back to Pagesetters. I think I will get depression if i keep on stay at home! I really need someone tell me how to be a good daughter! How to control my temper! How! Seriously, everyone, give me sometimes! I need sometimes to get over this.. T.T

OMG! This is really a long post! But something I'm excited on! Finally, Yeah!!! 24th September! Release of TVXQ album Mirotic! Yeah! I love them~~ So nice! I'm looking forward to their new album! Jia you! N the next day Wonder girls!!! Haha.. ok.. should stop it! I think i should really dip myself in music! I need them while thinking.. ok, I hope the next post i can tell u guys, I already get over eveything! So tiring.. wanna sleep liao~ Bye~ :)

Update!!

Hello people~ Wah.. recently so rajin! Haha.. Cuz I got something to write mah~ Well, I'm back! This week back to Singapore! But it was a tiring week! Haha..

Firstly, when I reached Singapore, I msg all my dear friends and even gave each of them a call! As usual, everyone picked up except MONKEY!! TSK! forever! Throw away the phone man! Oh ya, really so sorry to princess that I tot she got no class but she picked up my call while waiting to consult in class! See! Monkey! Ok la, maybe u r consulting that time! Ok, forgive u one time! Next time u dun pick up again I will smash ur phone into two pieces! Haha.. I was thinking to have a gathering, but too bad, I came at the wrong timing, it's third week everyone just busy like crazy.. So I was planning to go bugis and help my sis buy the materials to do the lantern. (Her company is having lantern design competition! Haha.. So cute!) After that, Lexy said she is going to buy a mouse, so we decided to go together! I went to school met princess, monkey and lexy, too bad cloudy was too busy and was working at home.. I haven't see her for very long time.. Haha.. Cloudy! I miss u~ Haha..

Ok,ok, here comes the exciting part! After lunch in school, me & lexy started our shopping day!! We went to challenger buy mouse and whatever.. Haigh, I spent S$33 for my laptop cooling balls!! OMG! Cuz my membership expired.. Lexy bought few items and I felt that next time I could have buy something her so I joined member again! the cooling balls original member price only 13! But it's ok la, I apply already, Lexy's items can have big discount and next time monkey ar, princess or cloudy might want to buy something from challenger! Then, my membership can be use liao! Haha.. Then, we went to bugis to buy the materials.. Body shop is having promotion, so I bought a bodymist with only S$12 instead of the original price S$19.90! haha.. I bought myself the nice lotion too! Really like the lotion a lot! I love body shop!! :) Then finally start my purpose that day! BUY MATERIALS! haha.. Bought quite a lot of stuff there la.. After that, we were planning to go for dinner then go home, but SHIT! Both of us saw a shop that grab our attention! OMG!! The clothes there super nice man! All from korea!! Ya, it's the shop that I bought my jacket in Novena! Same boss! Such a coincidence that I was wearing that jacket and that aunty came and asked me : "u bought this jacket from me rite?" Hahaha.. So Paiseh! But the clothes inside seriously so nice! I want to slim down and buy the whole shop man! haha.. Lexy also loves their clothes! In the end! SHIT!! We really spend a lot of money! We both bought two pieces.. The most paiseh is that I forgot to try that one I like, after dinner, super paiseh to step in and buy again! Haha.. Lexy keep laughing at me but seriously I'm not used to go inside a shop twice as I'm so paiseh la! Haha.. But really happy! Cuz bought two clothes that I really like! Expensive? it's ok la, seldom see something I really like!my mum gave me some money for birthday ma.. So ok lo~ I can always earn it back! :)

That day was really tiring.. But really very happy! thanks Lexy for accompany me shopping! We both had a great day! Haha.. the next day, I went back to Pagesetters.. I supposed to go there and visit my colleague - Sheryl as 10th September is her last day in PS. But when Wai Han knew that I'm having holidays, she asked me to go back and work.. Ok la, rest two weeks enough la.. Stay at home also boring.. Earn some money also not bad! So! Tada! I'm back to work in Pagesetters now! But the timing is quite free la! I dun mind as it's really comfortable to work in such a happy environment! :) After work, I went to Yio Chu Kang to do lantern with my sis & her friends! OMG!! Super tiring! Still have to take bus back.. I almost wanna faint man! Haha.. The next day which is today still have to work! OMG! feel like a deadmeat! Haha..

Today, it's Sheryl last day.. We secretly did a card for her and again they bought a cake! YEAH! Haha.. Like what Alvan said they are really best customers of cakeshop! Haha.. I did a card for her also! She likes it! Haha.. We squeezed in the little pantry and have our makan there~ So warm-hearted.. But too bad, Sheryl leaving.. Before I left the office, she gave me a hug! But I know she will be back! We can always keep in touch! So ok! Sheryl, really wish u all the best for ur new venture in ur life! It's been a great experience to work with u! All the best ya!

And all my dear friends! Jia you for this block! Tmr I'm gg to work halfday and go back M'sia! Friday mummy going to bring me to play lanterns with kids! Yeah!! So exciting! Will update with you guys again! :) Jia you! :)

Harlo~ Ppl~

Hihi!! Hee-haw is back! :) Hee-haw is having her holidays right now but really really miss her friends a lot! hahaha..

Well, let's talk about my holidays.. Well, it's been two weeks I stayed at home.. Nothing special actually.. But this might be the most memorable holidays I think.. I realize that my PARENTS START TO TALK TO EACH OTHER!! OMG!! can u believe it?! Till now I also dun believe it! Hahaha.. But there are good and bad too.. Now i'm still so scared that my dad talk to my mum, cuz he will start complaining.. Omg, that time I really feel like dying man, when we have dinner together he kept complaining this and that and I could sense that my mum was about to explode! OMG.. So scary.. Better go back SG.. hahaha.. But I see great improvement la.. At least he talked nicely not those want to smack ppl tone! hahahaha.. Daddy & mummy, I really hope that u two can stay peacefully.. Just that simple, i don't think u two can be lovely couple but at least just talk to each other without making each other angry.. I just hope u two can stay peacefully.. Ok la, at least got improvement! I shall give each of u one sticker! :) hahaha..

Well, actually my holidays here very boring.. Everyday stick with my com.. Haha.. Recently start to mad with BIG BANG.. Haha.. their songs very nice! I like Seung Ri a lot! Haha.. he's cute! But no worries, I still love my TVXQ the most! hahahaha... Oh ya, I'm waiting for 24th September to come! TVXQ going to debut their fouth korean album that day! OMG! So looking forward to it! :) And the next day would be wonder girls! Haha.. I love september! 25th september also our lovely monkey's birthday! What a nice day! :) Hmm.. this time must give monkey a very good birthday since we always on holidays during her birthday! haha..

Although I'm having such a long holidays here but I din get to see any of my m'sia frens.. they are all busy with their studies.. So it's ok.. I'm not that disappointed anymore.. cuz.. My heart already dead for them.. I told myself if they ask me out it's just a bonus that I get from them.. Don't expect too high so that I won't be too disappointed afterthat.. But I really really miss my ultimate best frensss, monkey, quakie, meowie & porky!! hahaha... Just two weeks nvr see, haigh.. can't imagine after graduate how can we survive man.. Hahaha.. Two weeks already kill us by missing each other! hahaha.. But i'm going back! hahaha.. Go swimming.. I know a bit xiao but at least I get to see u guys! :)

Also there's a sad news to share, one of my colleague in Pagesetters going to leave the big family.. So i'm going back the day before she leaves which is 9th September - also CJ's birthday! haha.. Purposely go there and eat cake!! hahahahaha... :) But next time I can't see Sheryl there.. So sad.. She is one of my best friend there.. But we can always keep in touch! Hope she found a better job! :) (haigh, Pagesetters so nice she still want to leave.. Lexy!! Faster go apply!! hahaha..)

Oh ya, Everyone! I've got a new phone without paying any cents!! YEAH!! W910i.. Cuz my plan ending soon so I just recontract.. But still very happy to get new phone with 0 cents! haha.. Another good news is that my god of fortune coming back for few days this year October!! haha... Koko~~~ I want DSLR Camera~~ haha.. although my sis just bought a new digital camera~ But actually I really miss my koko la.. not really for the camera la.. (I'm sincerely feel that way! )

Haigh.. Having holidays now but still can't relax till the max cuz really have no idea what should I do for FYP.. Hmm.. should start doing research.. But so sienz le.. Nvm la, try to see more thing and get some inspiration la! Hey my ultimate best frenssss, I 'm coming back~ See u there ya! :)