I need sometimes to think..

Hello ppl, sorry for late update.. Ok, the tile is quite sad.. I'm going to talk about that later.. Now, as i promised, i'm going to tell u guys about my mid-festival night! Haha..

Actually, that night not really fun.. cuz the organiser not really good at organizing the event.. But the fun thing is i get to play lantern like a kid! Yeah! actually i even did a lantern (or i should say a lamp?) for fuN!! :) Haha.. Nice?

I'm back in Pagesetters for around two weeks.. Working here is really a nice experience.. Last friday, we were holding a book launch for a poetry book at the old parliment house.. I was selling another title by the other guy as he had a reading session down stairs.. the sales not very good as the book launch before last year, so they just come for the reading session.. and guess what! I reached there only realize Felix is the speaker! Hahaha.. So coincidense.. He was so surprise to see me there but since i'm wearing Ethos book T-shirt, he knew I was working la.. Haha.. so nice to chat with him once again.. Then i rush here and there.. But had a nice, short quick dinner (leftover buffet! Haha..) I'm so sorry can't join my frens in east coast for BBQ, but the book launch really need my help.. So sorry, I believe we have a lot of chance next time! :) That day dunno whether Mr Fong was drunk, he gave everyone one day off, then i was making funny face with his daughter as i got no day off, then OMG! I think he saw it! haha.. He suddenly said, "Eh? Khai Xin, you got no day off hor? How ar?" then my lady boss said, "it's ok! We give her double pay today!!" YEah!! Haha.. although not much money but i felt warm-hearted.. :)

I'm seriously doing everything in Pagesetters, almost everything, so quite tiring but learned a lot of things. I'm happy to be with my colleagues again! :) But suddenly a lot of things falls on me! Have to finish before October.. I wonder I can do it.. Haha.. But I will try my best to work faster la.. Haha.. So tiring..

Today! I went to Anchorvale swimming pools swimming with my sis.. So enjoyable.. I love the swimming pools a lot! So fun! Also long time din swim le, so happy! :) But really tiring~ Zzzzz

haha! One day i must bring along Lexy, Cloudy and ah chan to go n play! Haha.. Trust me! It's fun!

Ok, finally back to my title.. Recently, maybe start holidays.. I start to rest my mind and think of a lot of things. Today, I'm not really happy, or actually can said is really angry to death.. Something happened. It's not that I'm petty, maybe u would think it's just a small thing.. But this is my 原哲问题。I confessed that I'm not a good-tempered person. In fact, I'm really a hot-tempered person. I just hate myself that I can't control myself. But this time, I'm really angry, not becuz of u said u dun wan to go, it's that how many times u promised us that u will surely join us, but in the end, last minute just say not joining. And even rejecting one by one.. Can u recall how u promised us? I'm angry of ur irresponsible not u not joing us ok! I'm just a normal person. 我的忍耐也是有极限的，现在已经到极限了。I really dun wan to do this to my best fren, but I'm sad when i treat ppl like my most precious one and I'm just nothing to them. Ok, I shall calm down.. I dunno how to deal with this.. I need to time to think, I need time to get over this.. Give me sometimes.. BTW, i'm saying this seriously, if u feel like gg home to accompany family members jsut go for it, dun stay here jsut becuz of we angry with u.. U should have more time with ur family members.. What we want is u should be happy all the time. I hope we enjoy every single trip. Not forcing to go any place. I guess it won't turn up nice..

And I really hate myself a lot! Can somebody tell me how to be a good daughter? I really dunno how? I hope one day I can be a daughter that my mum n dad will be proud of me. I just heard my mum said if not for us, my dad already divorce my mum.. That moment, although I'm not comfortable with this, but I knew my daddy loves us. But sometimes he can be really irritating.. That's also the reason why I back to Pagesetters. I think I will get depression if i keep on stay at home! I really need someone tell me how to be a good daughter! How to control my temper! How! Seriously, everyone, give me sometimes! I need sometimes to get over this.. T.T

OMG! This is really a long post! But something I'm excited on! Finally, Yeah!!! 24th September! Release of TVXQ album Mirotic! Yeah! I love them~~ So nice! I'm looking forward to their new album! Jia you! N the next day Wonder girls!!! Haha.. ok.. should stop it! I think i should really dip myself in music! I need them while thinking.. ok, I hope the next post i can tell u guys, I already get over eveything! So tiring.. wanna sleep liao~ Bye~ :)