为什么这个世界这么的不公平？I always tot that it's just a common speech in drama. But now i know i m wrong! There are so many unfair things in this world.
Well, i think it's really a good time to blog now! I feel so lost now! I hate things being so unsure! I m not sure what i m gg to do next. I m not sure what m i going to study. I m not sure whether I GOT THE CHANCE to continue study. I m not sure whether i m suitable to be a remisier. i m not sure whether i m suitable to be a designer. Everythings seems to be so unsure for me. Can someone give me a answer pls? I guess no one will. Only I know what i want! But the biggest problem now is : I REALLY DUNNO WHAT I WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I got no dream. i dun mind get a remisier license. I dun mind work as designer. But I duno whether i will LIKE to be remisier. I dunno if i wan to be a designer. After three years in TP, I've seen so many good works and realise that I seriously not really talented in this field. Well, business? I'm not sure will do better? What i really hope is not to disappoint my father. He is desperate for remisier to take over his clientsss one day. And this day might come sooner thanks to my BLOODY SICKENING COUSIN SIMON TAY! If u happen to see him pls give him a big kick on his ass!!!!!!
I had mentioned before about that shitty cousin. Yes! My father still paying debt for him! No choice! cuz he dun wan to break his promise to that client. Well, becuz of him, I might not be able to study abroad. I can see my father really dun wish to send me over. He asked me to take the remisier course and get a license. Then u dun need to study degree. dun u think this is so unfair. If all these never happen, my cousin can take over my father's clients(although i dun wan to, but at least when i m sick of design i can snatch back!) I can used up these few years to learn more things, explore more things, then i might know what i really want! Now i m too young to know what i wan for my future!!! If all these never happen, I can go study abroad without worries. I dun need to worry about the money. But since my dad say so, i think he really can't afford. Even he can afford but would be quite hard for him.
He is 61 years old this coming 14th of June. if all these never happen he can retire now. He can go travel to anywhere he want. And last week, I heard my ah mah called him keep on asking him to help that piece of bullshit! Sometimes i really dunno why i will respect a grandmother like her man!!! Why she can't see us!!!! She keep thinking of her grandson! Did she even think of us? If she step in my house and sigh to me! that's it! I'm going to cry and tell her! It's enough! Now Igot no money to continue study! are u satisfied with this?!!!!!!! I can't take it anymore!
If my dad can wait for a few years more, i dun mind to come back and work as remisier. But can i at least get a chance to fly out and explore the world? but I dunno if i can cope if i study abroad. i just dun really feel like stuck in Klg from now till the rest of my life.
Now only i know the world can be that unfair. My father help to send that piece of shit to US study his master or degree. Come back still a piece of shit, need to help him pay his debt.
原来好人不一定有好报。但我相信坚持当好人至少下场不会差到哪里去。我终于发现现实的残酷。但我不会因为这样而变得坏心肠。也绝对不可能会大量到去包容那家人。我只想好好的跟爸爸说：你辛苦了。儿时的承诺，我还是希望能够向您兑现。也许我做不到让你大福大贵的享福，但我仍然希望成为能让你感到骄傲的女儿。但是我该怎么做才好呢...
Can someone tell me what to do? I'm lost. How I wish I could turn back the time...
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Graduated!!!
Yes! I was officially graduated from TP yesterday! Hmm.. Very hard to describe, kind of complicated feeling. Happy? Hmm.. Probably yes cuz I had gone thru a lot of hard works and sleepless night to get my diploma! haha! and happy that I did not disappoint my family. Sad? I think probably sad is more than happy. I can't bear to leave my course mates! I'm going to miss them a lot!
Well, although I have experienced three times graduation (as in kindergarden, primary school and secondary school), I understand that no matter how good we are, we still need to seperate one day. Just that I dun wan to face that the DAY was yesterday. 21st of May 2009 here end my poly life. Well, in my 21 years of life(of cuz i live longer, just for now la! haha!) I think this 3 years were the most wonderful and enjoyable period that i ever had! Well, I know i might get shoot but i dun really like Singapore actually. Haha! (so brave! haha!) But I can't deny the fact that I met 4 besties/soulmates/family members here, and a lot of very good friends here!!!! Thanks to all of them, without all of u guys, my poly life won't be that interesting! I love hanging around with u guys! I enjoyed those days we squeeze together in des canteen eating tasty chicken chop, nice malay food, uncle's teh peng and ice milo. I missed those day we kacao in uncle Wilson's print shop, see how he act gay, play in the darkroom and com lab, help out in the super chaotic print shop, celebrating everyone birthday together, go to the library flipping books and so on. Really so so memorable. Throughout these three years, I received countless little present and encouraging letter from my besties and super sweet birthday present and surprise from Wendy, yiling and dudu! I missed those days playing hand's wave with genie - Regina! haha! So memorable right genie! haha!
I really can't bear to leave all of them. As for my besties, I really had tons of memorable moments with them. Thanks for their sacrifices for my first birthday surprise in TP! I still remember that moment i saw that video. I almost tear ok! just that i control myself! haha! Countless outing, gathering, cycling days, Ikea gathering, birthday celebration and so on. We had gone thru a lot with each other. I really cherish our relationship a lot, as important as my family member! I still remember those days we sang in the com lab, watching video together, cried when we were depress and so on. I'm glad that someone would call me and tell me she is miserable and dunno what to do. Of cuz I dun wan my fren to cry but at least when they are depress they think of me! Well, in the future u can still call me up whenever u feel depress or having some problem. Walking atm is still here! hahah! I dun mind to be ur listener!
Although I had a lot of hard time in TP, but I enjoyed a lot! I will never regret to study here, if not i might not meet all my besties here, all my good frens here and enjoyed all the good times with them. Well, people! We made it! We already graduated from TP. No matter what is ur future planning, all the best to whatever u do! Remember i will always be here for u guys! We need to gather more even after we graduate ok! Thanks for being such a wonderful frens in my life and tolerate with all my mistakes and bad temper. U guys will always on my mind! :)
Cheers for graduation and all the best! :)
Love ya,
Khai Xin a.k.a Hee-haw a.k.a Hawy a.k.a Xiao xin a.k.a Khai Khai....... (a lot more! haha!)
Well, although I have experienced three times graduation (as in kindergarden, primary school and secondary school), I understand that no matter how good we are, we still need to seperate one day. Just that I dun wan to face that the DAY was yesterday. 21st of May 2009 here end my poly life. Well, in my 21 years of life(of cuz i live longer, just for now la! haha!) I think this 3 years were the most wonderful and enjoyable period that i ever had! Well, I know i might get shoot but i dun really like Singapore actually. Haha! (so brave! haha!) But I can't deny the fact that I met 4 besties/soulmates/family members here, and a lot of very good friends here!!!! Thanks to all of them, without all of u guys, my poly life won't be that interesting! I love hanging around with u guys! I enjoyed those days we squeeze together in des canteen eating tasty chicken chop, nice malay food, uncle's teh peng and ice milo. I missed those day we kacao in uncle Wilson's print shop, see how he act gay, play in the darkroom and com lab, help out in the super chaotic print shop, celebrating everyone birthday together, go to the library flipping books and so on. Really so so memorable. Throughout these three years, I received countless little present and encouraging letter from my besties and super sweet birthday present and surprise from Wendy, yiling and dudu! I missed those days playing hand's wave with genie - Regina! haha! So memorable right genie! haha!
I really can't bear to leave all of them. As for my besties, I really had tons of memorable moments with them. Thanks for their sacrifices for my first birthday surprise in TP! I still remember that moment i saw that video. I almost tear ok! just that i control myself! haha! Countless outing, gathering, cycling days, Ikea gathering, birthday celebration and so on. We had gone thru a lot with each other. I really cherish our relationship a lot, as important as my family member! I still remember those days we sang in the com lab, watching video together, cried when we were depress and so on. I'm glad that someone would call me and tell me she is miserable and dunno what to do. Of cuz I dun wan my fren to cry but at least when they are depress they think of me! Well, in the future u can still call me up whenever u feel depress or having some problem. Walking atm is still here! hahah! I dun mind to be ur listener!
Although I had a lot of hard time in TP, but I enjoyed a lot! I will never regret to study here, if not i might not meet all my besties here, all my good frens here and enjoyed all the good times with them. Well, people! We made it! We already graduated from TP. No matter what is ur future planning, all the best to whatever u do! Remember i will always be here for u guys! We need to gather more even after we graduate ok! Thanks for being such a wonderful frens in my life and tolerate with all my mistakes and bad temper. U guys will always on my mind! :)
Cheers for graduation and all the best! :)
Love ya,
Khai Xin a.k.a Hee-haw a.k.a Hawy a.k.a Xiao xin a.k.a Khai Khai....... (a lot more! haha!)
Here's the photo! We finally graduated! :) Cheer for our frenship! :)
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Probably another rubbish post?
Haha! The title was my exact thinking before i start writing this post! haha! Well, just browse through lexy, sin yee and cloudy's blog! Why nady dun have one man! TSK! haha! So i feel like i need to update something since so long time we haven't meet up! Haha!
Well, these few weeks I was staying in Malaysia. Of cuz i'm still in M'sia now. But how to describe, the lifestyle here is really kind of relax compared to Singapore. Haha! I love driving around but I hate working for my cousin's wife. Omg! can u believe that a diploma holder only get RM 3.85 per hour and still need to work like a dog! OMG! Really so irritating! actually I was planning to rest few weeks at home and maybe go back to Pagesetters and see whether they need designer. But then few weeks ago, my cousin was talking to me in his place in my mum office. I was standing somewhere else, not facing him. He asked me to go and help his wife. I pretend nvr hear it. But too bad, the next morning, she called. I was like SHIT! SHIT! SHIT! I was forced to wake up! (really hate ppl call me during my sleep man! Especially ppl I dun like! tsk! haha!) Then my she said she desperately need designer, cuz she just sacked the malay designer and only left one designer. She said she can't tahan that designer anymore. And her previous worker who agreed to come back din turn up. So, sigh~ She already talked like that I can't even say no rite? Sigh~ So, I went to help. But she din mentioned about the pay at all! So, I also dun really bother la. I dun really follow time. Haha! Late to work, lunch time 1.5 hour! haha! really ultimate. but I really duno she count by hour! WALAO WEI! Two years ago she gave me RM20 per day ok! So, april I think i work for two weeks more, I get RM 288.56! And she din pay me that RM0.56! Omg! I'm gg to faint! Well, I dun really feel like helping her cuz of my stupid cousin k! really wan to bodyslam that whole family! All so yong sui! Working there everything is urgent and unorganized. Somemore irritating client keep pestering u as if i only do her work! TSK! I must say I enjoy the life there but working there really sucks! But the colleagues there all very nice la. Just that the pay sucks, never ending job order and irritating client. My cousin wife is good to me as in attitude but seriously can't believe she give me this type of pay and like hinting why two of us working so slow! OMG! Really!
The jie jie sitting beside me is just the same age with my brother. 30 years old, but totally like 24 only! I got shocked when she said she wan to fetch her son! haha! She is really a good example to learn for actually. She never study design before, she learned all those software in the previous company. All her stuff looks professional, and she is really a good-tempered and meticulous person. How i wish i can be like her, good-tempered.
Well, i haven't tell my cousin's wife I wanna resign but i already declare to all my colleagues: Sorry, close order! haha! Since she found a malay girl designer and I heard that 1st of june another one is coming, so i can go. i'm just there to help out!
Convocation is coming. Next week. I dunno what to wear and got nothing really formal to wear too. Well, that's not so important. Just that suddenly feel kind of depress. Once the convocation is over, we might not see each other that often. I keep asking myself, will we still the same? As in the relationship between five of us. I'm scared. As u guys have heard thousands times U guys are so important to me. I'm really so glad to find four soul mates in my life. Well, I dun really believe in FOREVER. I really dun believe it. I dun think those ppl who saying FOREVER this word can really do what they said. Like the fans to their Idols. I dun say I love TVXQ Forever but i would say i appreciate them even one day they disband(CHOY CHOY CHOY!) I would remember them as one of my favourite band. But guys, if i happen to write frens forever in ur card or letter or whatever, I mean it and I tell myself I MUST really do it till the day I die. Think that magic word only apply to four of u! haha! We are more like family member more than frens i think. I dun wan us to be like stranger. I duno what to do but I will try hard to gather all of us every month! I do missed those days in TP, everything! So memorable. Omg, i think i would cry after the convocation man! Shit! haha!
Well, I might continue study next year. The july semester my brother said a lot of course not available, also a bit too rush to study on july. So might start next year. This period of time, it's good to improve my broken english, learn more stuff and tidy up my portfolio. Ok, damn tired now. I hate working! tsk! I m gonna quit soon! See u guys next week and hug together cry ok! hahah! :)
Well, these few weeks I was staying in Malaysia. Of cuz i'm still in M'sia now. But how to describe, the lifestyle here is really kind of relax compared to Singapore. Haha! I love driving around but I hate working for my cousin's wife. Omg! can u believe that a diploma holder only get RM 3.85 per hour and still need to work like a dog! OMG! Really so irritating! actually I was planning to rest few weeks at home and maybe go back to Pagesetters and see whether they need designer. But then few weeks ago, my cousin was talking to me in his place in my mum office. I was standing somewhere else, not facing him. He asked me to go and help his wife. I pretend nvr hear it. But too bad, the next morning, she called. I was like SHIT! SHIT! SHIT! I was forced to wake up! (really hate ppl call me during my sleep man! Especially ppl I dun like! tsk! haha!) Then my she said she desperately need designer, cuz she just sacked the malay designer and only left one designer. She said she can't tahan that designer anymore. And her previous worker who agreed to come back din turn up. So, sigh~ She already talked like that I can't even say no rite? Sigh~ So, I went to help. But she din mentioned about the pay at all! So, I also dun really bother la. I dun really follow time. Haha! Late to work, lunch time 1.5 hour! haha! really ultimate. but I really duno she count by hour! WALAO WEI! Two years ago she gave me RM20 per day ok! So, april I think i work for two weeks more, I get RM 288.56! And she din pay me that RM0.56! Omg! I'm gg to faint! Well, I dun really feel like helping her cuz of my stupid cousin k! really wan to bodyslam that whole family! All so yong sui! Working there everything is urgent and unorganized. Somemore irritating client keep pestering u as if i only do her work! TSK! I must say I enjoy the life there but working there really sucks! But the colleagues there all very nice la. Just that the pay sucks, never ending job order and irritating client. My cousin wife is good to me as in attitude but seriously can't believe she give me this type of pay and like hinting why two of us working so slow! OMG! Really!
The jie jie sitting beside me is just the same age with my brother. 30 years old, but totally like 24 only! I got shocked when she said she wan to fetch her son! haha! She is really a good example to learn for actually. She never study design before, she learned all those software in the previous company. All her stuff looks professional, and she is really a good-tempered and meticulous person. How i wish i can be like her, good-tempered.
Well, i haven't tell my cousin's wife I wanna resign but i already declare to all my colleagues: Sorry, close order! haha! Since she found a malay girl designer and I heard that 1st of june another one is coming, so i can go. i'm just there to help out!
Convocation is coming. Next week. I dunno what to wear and got nothing really formal to wear too. Well, that's not so important. Just that suddenly feel kind of depress. Once the convocation is over, we might not see each other that often. I keep asking myself, will we still the same? As in the relationship between five of us. I'm scared. As u guys have heard thousands times U guys are so important to me. I'm really so glad to find four soul mates in my life. Well, I dun really believe in FOREVER. I really dun believe it. I dun think those ppl who saying FOREVER this word can really do what they said. Like the fans to their Idols. I dun say I love TVXQ Forever but i would say i appreciate them even one day they disband(CHOY CHOY CHOY!) I would remember them as one of my favourite band. But guys, if i happen to write frens forever in ur card or letter or whatever, I mean it and I tell myself I MUST really do it till the day I die. Think that magic word only apply to four of u! haha! We are more like family member more than frens i think. I dun wan us to be like stranger. I duno what to do but I will try hard to gather all of us every month! I do missed those days in TP, everything! So memorable. Omg, i think i would cry after the convocation man! Shit! haha!
Well, I might continue study next year. The july semester my brother said a lot of course not available, also a bit too rush to study on july. So might start next year. This period of time, it's good to improve my broken english, learn more stuff and tidy up my portfolio. Ok, damn tired now. I hate working! tsk! I m gonna quit soon! See u guys next week and hug together cry ok! hahah! :)
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Can't breath...
I'm sorry guys! Now only i update my blog. I think this is the very right timing to write. I m very depress now. Probably after this post, I would feel better.
Recently, after came back from yogyakarta, (Tell u guys about my trip in my next post with pic! hahah! but have to wait ok! Haha!) I m scared. Really scared. My dad went to china the week after i went holidays. So whole week stay in Malaysia accompany my mum.
The sentence i hate the most now is ppl asking me "what are you going to do after graduate?" Seriously, Hate it! I'm lost! I dunno what should I study. I'm now in a corner, with all my family and frens around me, asking me the same question, especially my sis! She keep forcing me to choose now! Yes! I know that's for my own good, but really, I'm lost. I feel like I'm going mad, whenever she asked me, i just keep quiet. Even I ask my dad, he was like either no answer, or dunno what is he talking about then walk back to his room. I m really damn stress now. I see myself holding my head sitting at a dark corner. I can't find an exit to run away, with all of them behind me forcing me to go out. I m lost. I dunno what to do and what should i do. it's a kind of burden to click in those website to search for sch.
I'm so regret now. I should be more hardworking. now my result is like a piece of shit. I really wonder m i suitable to study design? I got no talent at all. I should be more hardworking. Now this kind of result, who the hell will accept me? With probably the most scary portfolio, i dun think there's any school wan to accept me. Where to go? Australia? I wanted too. I dun like to study in either NTU or NUS. It's just another round of discrimination. Even I want I dun think I can get in too. i really can't breath. I hate that kind of stress.
I was sitting at my living room just now, cried with the sad music. I just need to release all out. I can't do it in front of anyone in my family. I know they are more worried! But I really dunno what to do but cry out. I'm such a useless bum! Always made ppl worry for me. Even my health. Really, the first time i feel so helpless. I'm drowning, and i can't see any helps in front of me. What should I do? I dun wan to disappoint my family. I wonder if I m suitable to study oversea with my lousy english.
Ok enough! Should stop it! I feel much better after throwing all my "rubbish" here. Just ignore ok! :)
Well, these few days I was watching korean drama at home. Beethoven virus and on air. Beethoven virus is a story about a orchestra team. How they fight for their dream. It's nice becuz the actor jang geun suk is handsome! haha! I m envy because they have a dream, which i dun have. And really envy them can fight for their dream. But the love story in that drama sucks! Really kns the female main role! Such a young handsome guy dun wan, in the end fell in love with the old uncle! Walao wei! Not nice! Tsk! Haha!
On air, to me, it's nice. Long ago i wanted to watch it. The story is about how the entertaiment industry working in Korea. An arrogant top star, a very famous storywriter, a new but good director and a caring star manager. the love story between them are nice especially the director and the storywriter. Haha! they are so cute! I love the OST too. The one sided love by Park Yong Ha which act as the director and If.. by Naby(Too bad not nady! haha).. Really very sad song. Shit man! Always like these kind of songs.. Sigh.. But that's why i love Kpop too, their touching music. If u feel too bored can take a look at this drama too. To me is interesting cuz after this drama only I know, to produce a drama really needs a lot of effort. Everyone put in a lot of effort just for the drama. And now i think it is so unfair for the audience to say not nice when they dun even see how hard they work. Even to me the story is not nice, but now i learn to respect every of them. They are always in a hard time!
Wah such a long post. Ok, well, just an update. i m currently working in my cousin wife's print house. Doing boring design job. Although i dun really feel like working there, but too bad la, she only left one designer there, and very hard to find graphic designer in my hometown. So I just go and help her. Sigh.. But wednesday I will go singapore for the swimming class! haha! Hope can meet u guys la. Ok, after this post I should feel better. All my tears, go back to ur house and have a long sleep k! goodnight! all of u! :)
Recently, after came back from yogyakarta, (Tell u guys about my trip in my next post with pic! hahah! but have to wait ok! Haha!) I m scared. Really scared. My dad went to china the week after i went holidays. So whole week stay in Malaysia accompany my mum.
The sentence i hate the most now is ppl asking me "what are you going to do after graduate?" Seriously, Hate it! I'm lost! I dunno what should I study. I'm now in a corner, with all my family and frens around me, asking me the same question, especially my sis! She keep forcing me to choose now! Yes! I know that's for my own good, but really, I'm lost. I feel like I'm going mad, whenever she asked me, i just keep quiet. Even I ask my dad, he was like either no answer, or dunno what is he talking about then walk back to his room. I m really damn stress now. I see myself holding my head sitting at a dark corner. I can't find an exit to run away, with all of them behind me forcing me to go out. I m lost. I dunno what to do and what should i do. it's a kind of burden to click in those website to search for sch.
I'm so regret now. I should be more hardworking. now my result is like a piece of shit. I really wonder m i suitable to study design? I got no talent at all. I should be more hardworking. Now this kind of result, who the hell will accept me? With probably the most scary portfolio, i dun think there's any school wan to accept me. Where to go? Australia? I wanted too. I dun like to study in either NTU or NUS. It's just another round of discrimination. Even I want I dun think I can get in too. i really can't breath. I hate that kind of stress.
I was sitting at my living room just now, cried with the sad music. I just need to release all out. I can't do it in front of anyone in my family. I know they are more worried! But I really dunno what to do but cry out. I'm such a useless bum! Always made ppl worry for me. Even my health. Really, the first time i feel so helpless. I'm drowning, and i can't see any helps in front of me. What should I do? I dun wan to disappoint my family. I wonder if I m suitable to study oversea with my lousy english.
Ok enough! Should stop it! I feel much better after throwing all my "rubbish" here. Just ignore ok! :)
Well, these few days I was watching korean drama at home. Beethoven virus and on air. Beethoven virus is a story about a orchestra team. How they fight for their dream. It's nice becuz the actor jang geun suk is handsome! haha! I m envy because they have a dream, which i dun have. And really envy them can fight for their dream. But the love story in that drama sucks! Really kns the female main role! Such a young handsome guy dun wan, in the end fell in love with the old uncle! Walao wei! Not nice! Tsk! Haha!
On air, to me, it's nice. Long ago i wanted to watch it. The story is about how the entertaiment industry working in Korea. An arrogant top star, a very famous storywriter, a new but good director and a caring star manager. the love story between them are nice especially the director and the storywriter. Haha! they are so cute! I love the OST too. The one sided love by Park Yong Ha which act as the director and If.. by Naby(Too bad not nady! haha).. Really very sad song. Shit man! Always like these kind of songs.. Sigh.. But that's why i love Kpop too, their touching music. If u feel too bored can take a look at this drama too. To me is interesting cuz after this drama only I know, to produce a drama really needs a lot of effort. Everyone put in a lot of effort just for the drama. And now i think it is so unfair for the audience to say not nice when they dun even see how hard they work. Even to me the story is not nice, but now i learn to respect every of them. They are always in a hard time!
Wah such a long post. Ok, well, just an update. i m currently working in my cousin wife's print house. Doing boring design job. Although i dun really feel like working there, but too bad la, she only left one designer there, and very hard to find graphic designer in my hometown. So I just go and help her. Sigh.. But wednesday I will go singapore for the swimming class! haha! Hope can meet u guys la. Ok, after this post I should feel better. All my tears, go back to ur house and have a long sleep k! goodnight! all of u! :)
Friday, March 27, 2009
Kkotboda Namja!!!!
Yes! Recently I'm addicted to this Korean Drama - 花样男子! OMG! I got another new bf now! hahaha! Although Chang Min, Xiah, and Min Ho still my bf! (Aiya! Dewy got so many! I can't have four meh?!) Yes! My new bf is... KIM HYUN JOONG! Hahahah! OMG! He is really very charming k! My yun ji hoo!!! Before watching this show, I knew that he is Jae joong and Micky's Best fren! He is also SS501 Leader. Not bad la that band.
Well, his personality really like Jae Joong! No wonder they are best fren now! I tot he is that kind very cool type, sekali like jae joong! Very funny. I m watching 我们结婚了now! Hahaha! He is damn funny and Huang Bo really very pretty! Heehee! Love their couple match! Haha!
Seriously I need to recommand u guys to watch Kkotboda namja! Really very nice to watch! although my Yun Ji Hoo very poor thing, but besides that this show is worth to watch. I like their background, then those costume the actors or actress wear. Next week Korea going to show the last two epidsode. Although I know Ji hoo can't win Jan di's heart, but really very sad that those ppl he likes all not by his side. Awww.. So poor thing. But I should say, hyun joong first time to be actor very successful. He really suits yun ji hoo very well which sometimes makes me think yun ji hoo = Kim Hyun Joong! hahaha! Aww~ going to finish soon! Sigh~ Really hope to watch more man! Haha!
Okok! Back to something related to me! haha! Diploma show finally started yesterday! But seriously i think this year dip show sucks man! Really dunno what to do! Then all so not organise! Even the guest also dunno what to do! I really prefer to have personal panel so that ppl can view ur work better what! Sigh~ Dunno what are they have in their mind man!
Dip show coming which means I'm going to graduate soon. Sigh~ I really dunno what should I do for my further study! Continue study Design or something else? What to study? Where to study? Really have to no idea!! I'm lost! and recently family matters also drive me crazy! I really can't stand that stupid idiot cousin man! walao wei! My father's hard earning money all dump in to pay his stupid debt! OMG! And pls my ah mah! Can u stop complaning how pathetic ur grandson is! Can't u see my father is more pathetic man!!!! Seriously I really need to bodyslam my cousin! Walao wei! IT'S UR DEBT K! WHY SHOULD MY FATHER BEAR THIS FOR U?! Sigh~ My poor father.. Sigh~
Well, dunno what else to say. Really, this matter spoilt all my mood! Ok! Should post something happier! Ok! Enjoy the photos~
Friday, March 20, 2009
Update la!
Ok ok! Since my two little fans keep shouting at the chatter box, Hehe! I'm here to update my blog! But Chan Sin Yee! U also nvr update hor! Haha! Lexy why still jonghyun husband on top?! See u also nvr update! Micky is going to jump down from han jiang k!
Ok! Well, actually dun need to update! haha! Cuz I almost see all my readers everyday man! All my mei liang xin's Malaysia frens, aisk~ Too disappointed man! Tsk tsk tsk!
Well, let's start my long story of eating salah medicine first! haha! I know u guys know what happen la! Just bear with it k! Igot not much things to update mah! Hahah!
Ok, last two weeks, finally everything over! I was free to go for another consultation - the neurosurgeon that I mentioned before - brain scan. It was tuesday! few days before I just experienced terrible skin allergy and got injection on monday! Ouch! Tuesday morning, me, my mummy, my godmother and the little boy - Li Ge set off early like 7.30am to Melaka Pantai hospital! Seriously i dunno how many times I go to hospital for check up man! tsk! we reached there earlier than our appointment time, and wait for almost one and half hour for the doctor. Omg! really wait too long! tsk! Then finally my turn! I went in with all my X-rays, MRI, CT Scan "photo" of my beautiful back spine. Of course, I need to tell my long long story about my back lo! then he did some check up like lift up hands, legs, then close my eyes while standing (think he is checking my balancing) He said everything normal. But the problem I mentioned before - My back brain (Well, I return back all my biology liao! dunno what does it called)'s position really lower than normal ppl but that is born to be like that. And he said looks like this is not the cause of my severe backpain! So he suggested me to go and consult a neurologist which is just few room away. (still wan to write letter! haha!) then inside that clinic DAMN alot of ppl! Omg! then i m the last patient. while waiting to go in and check, I went to consult another doctor which is skin specialist. She is a very soft, gentle kind ladies. She is Chinese. She gave me two bottle of cream to get rid all dark spot on my arms and they are so effective! I can feel it! Much different than before! then I went back ad wait for consultation. the neurologist is a soft malay uncle! Forgot to mention, the first doctor is a Indian man! See, i consulted three different races doctors! haha!
Then when I went into the room, the doctor did some similiar check up and of course need to repeat my story! Seriously I'm considering to record my story down man! then he said need to scan my brain. I'm the last patient so have to wait for few hours, so we went down to the canteen and ate our lunch there. Then about 4.30pm finally my turn! The nurse "paste" i think about 20 wyers on my head and ask my to close my eyes relax on the bed. After 15 minutes, she asked me to call my mum in. After tat scan my hair damn disgusting, because of the gel she apply on to stick the wyers! then the doctor came and said oh, it's brain cells problem. Some brain cells are inactive. Then I have to take three months medicine to recover. He kept saying "slowly u will recover" like how adult bluff kids! I was like Err.. Ok..
then I followed the intruction, took for those medicine for two weeks. I'm so sorry to chan chan and Lexy! cuz I keep sleeping during our Dong Bang trip! I really can't than man! too sleepy after taking medicine! then! Here's the bigger problem! After two weeks, while I was at Chan chan hometown, I realised that my hands and legs keep shivering! Lexy and chan chan also noticed tat! Then I went back and tell my mum cuz I suspect is the side effect of certain medicine. That day my legs were numb till I can't walk properly! my mum was shocked like what! Keep saying I looked like old lady now, do whatever in slow motion! Omg! I was really panic man! So monday went to consult my family doctor! I found the TRUTH! Thanks ar, the neurologist! HE CAN'T FIND THE REASON CAUSE MY BACK PAIN, HE TOT I GOT PSYCHOLOGY PROBLEM! SO HE GAVE ME THOSE MEDICINE USUALLY FOR PSYCHOLOGY PATIENT! OMG! WTH! which means i have been taking wrong medicine for two weeks! SHIT SHIT SHIT! I keep shivering even till now k! Now i need to buy medicine to stop the shivering! And of course! I need to consult another doctor!
I dunno what happen to me man! always so "LUCKY"! Kena cheated my two doctors! TSK! And my toufu body can be more healthy or not! Now financial crisis can! Stop it lar! Walao wei! When r u going to recover my lovely back spine?!! And these few days,so busy preparing for the dip show i dunno how many times i kena my mum scold, cuz i'm not supposed to anyhow walk, my family doctor suggest me to rest more and walk less and scared I will faint halfway! I'm so dizzy for the whole week man! SIGH~~~~ Hope can recover soon la!
Hereby i need to thank lexy! Thanks honey dewy for take care of me and accompany me for this whole week! i knew u r tired! so sorry! Next week my sis (ur gan jie) treat k! We shall have a gathering all together! cuz my sis till now still haven't see who is NADIA KAMIL AND LIM SIEW YUN!!! hahaha! And lexy, dun bother what that sai said! I borrow u money cuz I can afford to help and i understand u do need help! So dun be paiseh to borrow if u really need k! if i can't help i will tell u! So atm Hee-haw is standing here for FOUR of you! and all my money are belongs to my banker! hahaha! So ok la! I can borrow u guys means I got extra for myself! So dun need to feel guilty cuz u guys still need to return me back what! hahaha! So dun worry k!
Ok, feel dizzy again! time to take the CORRECT medicine and sleep! Everyone jia you k! after next week's Dip show we can finally rest! Let's go cycling again~ :)
Ok! Well, actually dun need to update! haha! Cuz I almost see all my readers everyday man! All my mei liang xin's Malaysia frens, aisk~ Too disappointed man! Tsk tsk tsk!
Well, let's start my long story of eating salah medicine first! haha! I know u guys know what happen la! Just bear with it k! Igot not much things to update mah! Hahah!
Ok, last two weeks, finally everything over! I was free to go for another consultation - the neurosurgeon that I mentioned before - brain scan. It was tuesday! few days before I just experienced terrible skin allergy and got injection on monday! Ouch! Tuesday morning, me, my mummy, my godmother and the little boy - Li Ge set off early like 7.30am to Melaka Pantai hospital! Seriously i dunno how many times I go to hospital for check up man! tsk! we reached there earlier than our appointment time, and wait for almost one and half hour for the doctor. Omg! really wait too long! tsk! Then finally my turn! I went in with all my X-rays, MRI, CT Scan "photo" of my beautiful back spine. Of course, I need to tell my long long story about my back lo! then he did some check up like lift up hands, legs, then close my eyes while standing (think he is checking my balancing) He said everything normal. But the problem I mentioned before - My back brain (Well, I return back all my biology liao! dunno what does it called)'s position really lower than normal ppl but that is born to be like that. And he said looks like this is not the cause of my severe backpain! So he suggested me to go and consult a neurologist which is just few room away. (still wan to write letter! haha!) then inside that clinic DAMN alot of ppl! Omg! then i m the last patient. while waiting to go in and check, I went to consult another doctor which is skin specialist. She is a very soft, gentle kind ladies. She is Chinese. She gave me two bottle of cream to get rid all dark spot on my arms and they are so effective! I can feel it! Much different than before! then I went back ad wait for consultation. the neurologist is a soft malay uncle! Forgot to mention, the first doctor is a Indian man! See, i consulted three different races doctors! haha!
Then when I went into the room, the doctor did some similiar check up and of course need to repeat my story! Seriously I'm considering to record my story down man! then he said need to scan my brain. I'm the last patient so have to wait for few hours, so we went down to the canteen and ate our lunch there. Then about 4.30pm finally my turn! The nurse "paste" i think about 20 wyers on my head and ask my to close my eyes relax on the bed. After 15 minutes, she asked me to call my mum in. After tat scan my hair damn disgusting, because of the gel she apply on to stick the wyers! then the doctor came and said oh, it's brain cells problem. Some brain cells are inactive. Then I have to take three months medicine to recover. He kept saying "slowly u will recover" like how adult bluff kids! I was like Err.. Ok..
then I followed the intruction, took for those medicine for two weeks. I'm so sorry to chan chan and Lexy! cuz I keep sleeping during our Dong Bang trip! I really can't than man! too sleepy after taking medicine! then! Here's the bigger problem! After two weeks, while I was at Chan chan hometown, I realised that my hands and legs keep shivering! Lexy and chan chan also noticed tat! Then I went back and tell my mum cuz I suspect is the side effect of certain medicine. That day my legs were numb till I can't walk properly! my mum was shocked like what! Keep saying I looked like old lady now, do whatever in slow motion! Omg! I was really panic man! So monday went to consult my family doctor! I found the TRUTH! Thanks ar, the neurologist! HE CAN'T FIND THE REASON CAUSE MY BACK PAIN, HE TOT I GOT PSYCHOLOGY PROBLEM! SO HE GAVE ME THOSE MEDICINE USUALLY FOR PSYCHOLOGY PATIENT! OMG! WTH! which means i have been taking wrong medicine for two weeks! SHIT SHIT SHIT! I keep shivering even till now k! Now i need to buy medicine to stop the shivering! And of course! I need to consult another doctor!
I dunno what happen to me man! always so "LUCKY"! Kena cheated my two doctors! TSK! And my toufu body can be more healthy or not! Now financial crisis can! Stop it lar! Walao wei! When r u going to recover my lovely back spine?!! And these few days,so busy preparing for the dip show i dunno how many times i kena my mum scold, cuz i'm not supposed to anyhow walk, my family doctor suggest me to rest more and walk less and scared I will faint halfway! I'm so dizzy for the whole week man! SIGH~~~~ Hope can recover soon la!
Hereby i need to thank lexy! Thanks honey dewy for take care of me and accompany me for this whole week! i knew u r tired! so sorry! Next week my sis (ur gan jie) treat k! We shall have a gathering all together! cuz my sis till now still haven't see who is NADIA KAMIL AND LIM SIEW YUN!!! hahaha! And lexy, dun bother what that sai said! I borrow u money cuz I can afford to help and i understand u do need help! So dun be paiseh to borrow if u really need k! if i can't help i will tell u! So atm Hee-haw is standing here for FOUR of you! and all my money are belongs to my banker! hahaha! So ok la! I can borrow u guys means I got extra for myself! So dun need to feel guilty cuz u guys still need to return me back what! hahaha! So dun worry k!
Ok, feel dizzy again! time to take the CORRECT medicine and sleep! Everyone jia you k! after next week's Dip show we can finally rest! Let's go cycling again~ :)
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Finally it's over!
Yeah yeah!! it's over! now still left the presentation part which I dun really care! Hahah! Just think of go in and anyhow crap! hahah!
Oh ya! forgot! My apologize! Really long time never update already! but seriously I was busy like hell for the past few weeks! But thank god it's over! I manage to done all my stuff on time but with the bad quality of cuz! hahah!
Well, these few days were really relaxing~ Although after I done my stuff I dun really feel happy but I feel relief. Unhappy perhaps due to my lousy works. I know I will kena shoot like dunno how. But I dun really care now, as long as I pass! hahah!
Just like what I read le xin blog, yes! i'm gonna thanks all of those ppl who assisted me to do this mission impossible! I promised her we must put this into our future album. Hahah!
To my dear honey dewy - Le Xin! Thanks so much for teaching me to draw different perspectives! And sometimes even draw for me although u already struggling for ur project! Really thanks so much! I will remember those days we do our works in McDonalds, spying what ppl talking about, eating our favourite McDonalds' Breakfast, drawing like mad, sharing ur disgusting dreams, sit from breakfast to lunch and so on! Really so memorable! And till the final stage, we stayed in the com lab with chan chan and nady, singing and dancing like mad, form a shinee girls, singing shinee's song and TVXQ's Mirotic, take cab together~ Really, it will be the most memorable memory. I'm sorry if i did something that make u angry, and also thanks for tolerate my bad temper! :)
To my dear chan chan - Sin Yee! Thanks so much for all ur help. All ur encourage words and email really helped me to move forward! Thanks for always organize outing like morning Ponyo's movie! Oh man! that was my first time watching movie so early! hahah! But it was nice! I will remember those days we went to ur house, go shopping together, go printing and help each other and also everything happened in the com lab! Really that last few weeks I was stress but really enjoyed! Thanks for accompany me to be mad girl and sing and dance in com lab! Thanks for almost everyday gather shinee girls in MSN or Skype, practise singing, sharing videos! If that few nights without those video, I really fell asleep liao! Hahah! Then, so sorry if my bad temper affects u! I can't tolerate my own bad temper too! hahah! And thanks for all ur help during this FYP! I'm sorry if my mounting skill spoilt ur things! :p
To my darling cloudy - Siew Yun! Although we were in the same class, but really looks like i dun see u that often! hahah! Well, u r really the hardworking girl who always make me so stress, but this kind of stress actually help to move forward! thanks! Thanks my dear for always tolerate my bad temper and comfort me when I think i'm way behind the final line. Thanks for ur encouraging SMS and email! Although we dun see each other that often during that period but I know u were really stress! Well, just wan to tell u, next time if u work outside, dun have to give urself too much stress ok! U must know how to destress! I still remember that day u cried in front of me! really shock me man! but i know what i can do is not stopping u from crying, cuz i know u are release all ur stress! do hang out more with all of us! u see! Shinee girls dun even feel stress! everyday happy like what! hahah! Thanks so much for all ur encouragement! Although U might deny, but I tell u seriously ur work is nice! dun always claim that it's not! U must be confident to ur own work ok! :)
To my dear master - Nadia! Thanks nady for ur very first treat to me, the pillow snack! It really tastes good! Well, dun feel bad to borrow money from me! I know U are broke for those printing and binding, I understand that's y I m happy to help! All those snacks I treated u were the ENCOURAGEMENT to u! Cuz I know, nothing else can give u energy except FOOD! Hahahah! That's y I buy food for u! During those days U were in India, we really missed u and worried for u! But it was so memorable that everyday log on to ur blog and see whether u update anything. Then also about ur love story there la! hahah! Thanks for always tolerate my bad temper and also tolerate SHINee girls awful singing and dancing in that room! We dun mean to irritate u, just wan to relax, that's our way to destress! hahah! But I should say, ur work really superb! I'm so glad to be ur pet man! With u in our gang we really feel so proud! We have talented photographer, talented illustrators (Lexin and Siewyun), and talented ENTERTAINERS (Chan Chan And Me la! hahah!) Oh ya, still got talented maid wai sun! hahah! I'm very happy to be in this group! :)
Well, Mr Chan Wai Sun, sorry ar, no dear hor! hahah! But I should really thank u for tolerate my bad temper, always pei he all our funny ideas, and also willing to be our maid! hahah! thanks so much la~ :)
Then, I should thanks to my cousin's wife who is called Evelyn too! hahah! Thanks for her help, without her help I can't print my book out! and also AZMIR! Although u can't see! But Thanks so much for helping me adjust the alignment one by one! Really thanks a lot! :)
Then, thanks to the aunties in the print shop, Fanny jie jie and Sharon Aunty! Although the other one doesn't help much and sometimes spoilt my things, but nvm, still thanks to her! Really thanks for their help if not i think I really can die man! Their bloody boss should really give them OT fee la! tsk!
Also, need to thank Sandy, the classic binder boss! hahah! Thanks for her patient and also her professional help! Next time if I go I will bring u coke! :)
And not to forget, Thanks to my family, my jie jie, mummy, 6th aunt for sewing the pouch for me, my jiu mu for sewing the table cloth and bag for me and my wan neng daddy for doing the box and measure for the bag! Thanks to my jie jie for sewing the five stones and tolerate all my bad temper! Really thanks a lot! :)
OK! Damn long! But I forgot to tell u guys who is Shinee Girls! Hahah! Shinee girls was form like few weeks ago by me, le xin and Sin yee! Cloudy still waiting for audition, but i guess she can totally join us la! Hahah! We sang more korean songs la! Hahah! Oh ya! ah chan and lexy thanks for so ren zhen learning korean songs! Now seems like everyone is obsessed with Kpop, Shinee and TVXQ! Hahah! See! Now U guys should know why I like hor?! hahah!
OK! I NEED TO DECLARE HERE! AHERM! CHAN SIN YEE AND WONG LE XIN! LONG TIME AGO I'M TVXQ'S FANS! LEXY U SAID U LIKE U-KNOW SINCE 2005 DOESN'T COUNT CUZ U DIN BUY THEIR ALBUM! HAHA! I WENT TO THEIR CONCERT AND BOUGHT ALMOST ALL THEIR ALBUM! I NEED TO DECLARE THIS, CHANG MIN IS MINE! XIAH IS MY SECONDARY SO CANNOT SNATCH WITH ME TOO! THEN I GUESS U GUYS WON'T SNATCH MIN HO FROM SHINEE WITH ME, NOT TO WORRY.
Just in case u watch the hua yang nan zi, I NEED TO DECLARE THE KIM HYUN JOONG WHO ACT AS YUN JI HU IS MINE TOO! Hahahah! Dun ever snatch with me! Hahaha! must declare first just in case! hahah! Omg! Hua Yang nan zi really nice to watch!
Ok, gotto go and watch my drama and later TVXQ session and also shinee session! hahah! So busy! :)
Oh ya! forgot! My apologize! Really long time never update already! but seriously I was busy like hell for the past few weeks! But thank god it's over! I manage to done all my stuff on time but with the bad quality of cuz! hahah!
Well, these few days were really relaxing~ Although after I done my stuff I dun really feel happy but I feel relief. Unhappy perhaps due to my lousy works. I know I will kena shoot like dunno how. But I dun really care now, as long as I pass! hahah!
Just like what I read le xin blog, yes! i'm gonna thanks all of those ppl who assisted me to do this mission impossible! I promised her we must put this into our future album. Hahah!
To my dear honey dewy - Le Xin! Thanks so much for teaching me to draw different perspectives! And sometimes even draw for me although u already struggling for ur project! Really thanks so much! I will remember those days we do our works in McDonalds, spying what ppl talking about, eating our favourite McDonalds' Breakfast, drawing like mad, sharing ur disgusting dreams, sit from breakfast to lunch and so on! Really so memorable! And till the final stage, we stayed in the com lab with chan chan and nady, singing and dancing like mad, form a shinee girls, singing shinee's song and TVXQ's Mirotic, take cab together~ Really, it will be the most memorable memory. I'm sorry if i did something that make u angry, and also thanks for tolerate my bad temper! :)
To my dear chan chan - Sin Yee! Thanks so much for all ur help. All ur encourage words and email really helped me to move forward! Thanks for always organize outing like morning Ponyo's movie! Oh man! that was my first time watching movie so early! hahah! But it was nice! I will remember those days we went to ur house, go shopping together, go printing and help each other and also everything happened in the com lab! Really that last few weeks I was stress but really enjoyed! Thanks for accompany me to be mad girl and sing and dance in com lab! Thanks for almost everyday gather shinee girls in MSN or Skype, practise singing, sharing videos! If that few nights without those video, I really fell asleep liao! Hahah! Then, so sorry if my bad temper affects u! I can't tolerate my own bad temper too! hahah! And thanks for all ur help during this FYP! I'm sorry if my mounting skill spoilt ur things! :p
To my darling cloudy - Siew Yun! Although we were in the same class, but really looks like i dun see u that often! hahah! Well, u r really the hardworking girl who always make me so stress, but this kind of stress actually help to move forward! thanks! Thanks my dear for always tolerate my bad temper and comfort me when I think i'm way behind the final line. Thanks for ur encouraging SMS and email! Although we dun see each other that often during that period but I know u were really stress! Well, just wan to tell u, next time if u work outside, dun have to give urself too much stress ok! U must know how to destress! I still remember that day u cried in front of me! really shock me man! but i know what i can do is not stopping u from crying, cuz i know u are release all ur stress! do hang out more with all of us! u see! Shinee girls dun even feel stress! everyday happy like what! hahah! Thanks so much for all ur encouragement! Although U might deny, but I tell u seriously ur work is nice! dun always claim that it's not! U must be confident to ur own work ok! :)
To my dear master - Nadia! Thanks nady for ur very first treat to me, the pillow snack! It really tastes good! Well, dun feel bad to borrow money from me! I know U are broke for those printing and binding, I understand that's y I m happy to help! All those snacks I treated u were the ENCOURAGEMENT to u! Cuz I know, nothing else can give u energy except FOOD! Hahahah! That's y I buy food for u! During those days U were in India, we really missed u and worried for u! But it was so memorable that everyday log on to ur blog and see whether u update anything. Then also about ur love story there la! hahah! Thanks for always tolerate my bad temper and also tolerate SHINee girls awful singing and dancing in that room! We dun mean to irritate u, just wan to relax, that's our way to destress! hahah! But I should say, ur work really superb! I'm so glad to be ur pet man! With u in our gang we really feel so proud! We have talented photographer, talented illustrators (Lexin and Siewyun), and talented ENTERTAINERS (Chan Chan And Me la! hahah!) Oh ya, still got talented maid wai sun! hahah! I'm very happy to be in this group! :)
Well, Mr Chan Wai Sun, sorry ar, no dear hor! hahah! But I should really thank u for tolerate my bad temper, always pei he all our funny ideas, and also willing to be our maid! hahah! thanks so much la~ :)
Then, I should thanks to my cousin's wife who is called Evelyn too! hahah! Thanks for her help, without her help I can't print my book out! and also AZMIR! Although u can't see! But Thanks so much for helping me adjust the alignment one by one! Really thanks a lot! :)
Then, thanks to the aunties in the print shop, Fanny jie jie and Sharon Aunty! Although the other one doesn't help much and sometimes spoilt my things, but nvm, still thanks to her! Really thanks for their help if not i think I really can die man! Their bloody boss should really give them OT fee la! tsk!
Also, need to thank Sandy, the classic binder boss! hahah! Thanks for her patient and also her professional help! Next time if I go I will bring u coke! :)
And not to forget, Thanks to my family, my jie jie, mummy, 6th aunt for sewing the pouch for me, my jiu mu for sewing the table cloth and bag for me and my wan neng daddy for doing the box and measure for the bag! Thanks to my jie jie for sewing the five stones and tolerate all my bad temper! Really thanks a lot! :)
OK! Damn long! But I forgot to tell u guys who is Shinee Girls! Hahah! Shinee girls was form like few weeks ago by me, le xin and Sin yee! Cloudy still waiting for audition, but i guess she can totally join us la! Hahah! We sang more korean songs la! Hahah! Oh ya! ah chan and lexy thanks for so ren zhen learning korean songs! Now seems like everyone is obsessed with Kpop, Shinee and TVXQ! Hahah! See! Now U guys should know why I like hor?! hahah!
OK! I NEED TO DECLARE HERE! AHERM! CHAN SIN YEE AND WONG LE XIN! LONG TIME AGO I'M TVXQ'S FANS! LEXY U SAID U LIKE U-KNOW SINCE 2005 DOESN'T COUNT CUZ U DIN BUY THEIR ALBUM! HAHA! I WENT TO THEIR CONCERT AND BOUGHT ALMOST ALL THEIR ALBUM! I NEED TO DECLARE THIS, CHANG MIN IS MINE! XIAH IS MY SECONDARY SO CANNOT SNATCH WITH ME TOO! THEN I GUESS U GUYS WON'T SNATCH MIN HO FROM SHINEE WITH ME, NOT TO WORRY.
Just in case u watch the hua yang nan zi, I NEED TO DECLARE THE KIM HYUN JOONG WHO ACT AS YUN JI HU IS MINE TOO! Hahahah! Dun ever snatch with me! Hahaha! must declare first just in case! hahah! Omg! Hua Yang nan zi really nice to watch!
Ok, gotto go and watch my drama and later TVXQ session and also shinee session! hahah! So busy! :)
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