Wah.. Since i'm having holidays, long time never update my blog!! Haha.. Cuz i'm enjoying my holidays here!!
This holidays i supposed to help my cousin's wife to do some design works as usual.. But this season not a lot of things to do.. So, i decided to help my mummy bank in cheque and so on!! Haha.. Life quite enjoy there.. When i got nothing to do there i can watch my drama using my bf - Mr. toshiba!! Haha.. And listen to my songs~ Haha.. BTW Le Xin, I'm watching 溏心风暴 now!! I'm learning cantonese! And tell u wat Wong Chung Chak Super ultra leng zai ar!! Haha.. U muz find this kind of bf.. Haha.. Kame they all too far away!! Haha.. Still got language barrier. But u can speak cantonese with Wong Chung Chak woh! Haha.. (Dun bother me.. I'm juz dreaming! Haha..)
Today is my dear daddy birthday! Happy birthday to my old bean! Haha.. I did a card for him.. I drew him!! Haha.. It's funny but wheni secretly show my mum she said looks like him!! Haha..
Actually during this holidays, i'm not really happy.. cuz again, myself alone at home.. Even i'm at home still.... Talk to my best fren - Wall.. Sometimes i may be too emotional.. I cried secretly at home becuz of my parents problem.. Perhaps my frens would envy me for having freedom at home, i can do wat i like without brother and sister's disturb, buy the things that i need.. but u know wat.. all this need to pay.. I've pay up my kinship for all these! Frankly, i think this is a big deep wound in y heart which no one else will know wat i feel.. I have to Listen wat my parents complaining each other.. I'm scared that my daddy will make my mum angry and scolding each other.. I know both of u hate each other.. Everytime no matter is watching drama or even seeing those old couples holding each others' hand, do u know how sad i feel.. How desperate i wish my parents would be like that and i can have a happy family.. I know that's juz my own wishful thinking.. But wat i want is just that both of u can live together peacefully! Hey, my dear parents.. I wish that one day u all can sit down and think all over again.. do u know how much i suffer for these.. During my sec sch life, it was happy memory in sch but was a nightmare at home.. when my mum cried, i cried secretly.. i never tell all these to my sis although my mum would tell her.. We never discuss bout this cuz we know this is a big wound in our heart which we dun wanna touch it..
But all these experience made my thinking more matured than same age frens.. that day i juz talk all these to Siew Yun.. Thanks, Siew Yun.. U r really a good listener. Actually, tat day i cried secretly in front of my laptop.. Haha.. Without my mum's knowing although she's watching tv in the living room.. this 神功 is the result of the past few years practice.. Which i cried secretly without anyone know i cried before! Haha.. Dun worry.. I'm fine now..
Everything will be fine~~ I miss you guys man, Siew Yun, Le Xin and Sin Yee.. Haha.. I'm glad that u all working now.. gambateh neh.. I will always support u all!! See u guys while sch reopen! See ya~
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