Oh ya, i still have a blog!

Ok ppl, *kneeling down* I admit i totally forget about having a blog here! HAHA! so long time never update! But that's really thanks to my previous laptop. Since the laptop broke down, I have to share computer with my sis. but of cuz i couldn't do blogging there cuz mostly i m complaining about her! HAHA! And the biggest secret is here. So i couldn't update that time, and after i got my new laptop, i seldom have time to blog cuz obviously my PREVIOUS boss was exploiting me. And till now, when i finally able to retrieve everyone's blog address, then only i realise how long i didn't update! =.=

Ok, so, I guess most of you know what i was doing so far, cuz you know my blog only patheticly around 5 ppl reading it and these 5 ppl, we often update each other la! HAHA!

Oh well, yeah, after i quit from my previous company, it's been almost three months resting at home. I enjoy the slow path lifestyle in my hometown kluang, I love to have a car to go wherever i want, I enjoy cleaning my house and stay in it, I love the relaxing lifestyle here. That's y i seldom be back to singapore, cuz I m thinking since i m going back for work for sure, so what for stay there for long, it's also very troublesome to my aunt. So i m back till now. Guess I have to search for job next month. So many ppl asking, i m getting more and more stress up now. But good news my body is slowly recovering now. Even gong gong told me not to be rush to find a work, better have a healthy body then only can work for long. HAHA! I din know i was THAT serious! HAHA!

Although i like my lifestyle here, but of cuz i feel sad staying at home too. As you guys know, long time problem, family problem. The longer i stay at home, i m getting so stress up at home too. I dunno when my father is going to scold my mum, i dunno what my mum done might provoke that old man. I have so many things to worry and that's why i keep my house clean all the time as i dun wan that my father use any of that as an excuse to scold my mum. although long time ago i have already gave up on my family, but still, whenever see my mum, serving dinner for my dad, i feel even more sad for my mum. That's also one of the reason why i need to stay here for so long. I hope i can use all my free time now to accompany my mum, relieve her from the housechores, make her happy all the time, and to block as many bullets' as possible from my dad. It's really depressing, but i couldn't talk about it to my brother and sister. This is the problem that we wished to keep it deep in our heart, buried it, best if no one would ever want to dig it up and discuss. I am really envy how close my fren's family bonding, but i know i can do nothing about it. The only thing i can do is just protecting my mum, I m just hoping she can live everyday happily. As for my dad, still i will do my part as a daughter, but he already lost my faith on him long time ago. I m not going to hurt myself more to know more about him and that irritating mistress. Want to have a new family outside, go ahead, just stop stabing on our heart.

Three months staying at home, there's happy memories as well as sad memories. But i guess sad memories just overpower the happy one. Recently my beloved nanny - aunty mama, passed away. When i was young, my parents were busy for work so normally i spent my daytime there. Compared to my brother and sister, i spent the lesser time there, i have no other play mates there, but still the time I spent there with her was the happiest memories in my life. She was so kind-hearted, patient and gentle nanny. She had never scold me before for doing anything wrong, everytime, she would be very patient with me, slowly explaining why i was wrong with me. I still remember whenever i was sick, i would recover fast when i stay there. I guess i really like to be with her. Fortunately, before she passed away, before my brother went oversea, we went to visit her, twice. Her daughter said she was really happy that before she passed away, she still able to meet all the little kids she took care before. I can do nothing for her, the only thing we can do was sending her off till the very last moment. Tears were filling on my eyes when I saw her lying on the coffin. Before that I told myself i couldn't cry, cuz i want her to go without worries. But still, we failed to do that, we cried by the side of her coffin. although physically she has gone, but still, she will live in my heart forever. I m gonna let my children know there's such a beautiful nanny tat took care of me. I will always remember her.

My love~ :)

OMG! Really this man can't kill me enough is it?!! I dunno whether I will die this coming april or not! He is going to wear all these super nice clothes while filming the drama. I guess I will really STICK on my screen and flood my room with my saliva~ HAHAHA!! Chang min ar~~ Enough la!! Dun be so handsome ok?! :)

Today is really a good day~ I din go back to the rubbish home, so i stayed in the rubbish room for this weekend. And this morning, I decided to do a spring clean for my room! Wasei! Really man! If i have a choice, i will definitely stay alone! I really hate living with my sister! SHE IS SUPER ULTRA DIRTY OMG! Really so angry while cleaning the room! The only thing she did was only cleaning the fan (Which i dunno how to open the thing!) Other than that, sorry man, i think i NEVER see her cleaning this room and i really feel very furious to see the room condition. Even in my rubbish house! Gosh! That should be even worse. I really dun feel like going back to look at it! My sis and my mum's room really horrible. My mum of cuz will keep the house but you see the way she do it, you might faint on the spot. as for my sister, I NEVER SEE HER CLEANING THE HOUSE, if you dun ask her to do. I mean she NEVER VOLUNTEER TO HELP CLEANING THE ROOM. All she do is sitting in front of the com or TV like a princess. WTH said I'm the princess in the house? Bloody hell! I m maid ok!!

Okok, too ji1 dong4 i know. HAHAH!! Today is a great day, cuz after i did a spring clean to my room, wasei! I NEVER SEE MY ROOM SO CLEAN BEFORE!! FEEL SUPER ULTRA HAPPY LA!! HAHAHAHHA! Then dewy came to my house~ And we went to swim~ :) I dunno is it the water problem or exercise makes ppl happy, we just feel super happy after swimming. HAHA!! And after i came back, i still feel very happy cuz my room is sooooo clean~~ :)))))

I really wonder how my house gonna look like when I'm back. But who cares, that's just a place for me to sleep. There's no one in the house would ever care about me. So sorry, i forgot i m just a maid. So let the princess go back often, i will be staying in my comfort zone forever~ Really feels very fan everytime i step into the house. SIGH! But now i learn to care lesser, since nobody cares about ur feeling, wat for I take it so serious! YES! so, i will tell my self, just be a good maid will do. My parents already have a GREAT DAUGHTER and SON, so plus me as the maid, perfect, and plus my father's mistress, fuiyoo, what a HAPPY FAMILY! HAHAHAHA!!

*yawn* Time to sleep. Dun think to much, keep remind urself, 活在当下, enjoy urself, dun regret after that, and really care lesser, you will be much more happier~ I'm learning to put it all down, I'm learning to tell myself my father is a betrayer is nothing, I'm learning to tell myself, dun take it too hard, one day you will leave them, long enough for them to realise that, I already gone...

OK la~ Update! HAHA!!

Ok, OMG! My last update was 24 November! Wasei! Really! I was busy like hell!! So sorry ppl for not update often, now sleeping is really so important to me man! I m always dead tired! HAHAH!! But it's ok i think, cuz there's only one loyal reader will read my blog which is dewy~ HAHAHAA!! Thanks dew! I guess i dun need to post any update u will also know everything since we keep emailed each other everyday! HAHAHA!!



OK! YES! Emails! Really during working hours, emails from frens really can refresh urself! HAHAHA!! It's so happy to see emails from ur frens! Like YES! Finally not job orders! hahaha!! Well, after almost 5 months torture, i m still hee-haw! No change! Just becoming more and more tired everyday! Sigh! I can feel myself getting weaker and weaker. Nowadays i sleep early like 10 + or 11+, but the next day i still feel super damn tired, tired walking, tired eating, tired talking. My every single cells are yelling for a rest! But this stupid idiot company just can't seem to understand the word "OVERLOAD". They are really suckers! This is the time i realise how selfish a person can get when u r in crucial moment! WTH! Like i keep helping the uncle to do the rubber stamp, cuz if i dun help him, i also kena what! So i m just a volunteer to help ok! But so sorry ar, this uncle also like keep asking finish already? As if these are my jobs! WALAO! Nvm, those sales ppl even more suckers! When comes to urgent item, who care u r exhausted or wahtever, even if u can't give them, what do u think? U r the one to take the blame la! REALLY Suckers! Then the IP site aunty keep forcing me to do urgent work. SO DEAD TIRED LA! Sigh!! T.T



I really hate working there. I dun mind to do prints, but i just feel like running away from these ppl. Seriously tot i m machine or what! Chang min ar~ When are u coming to save me from this miserable life? I hate working there, but no choice, need to save money, to fly to ur side! Fortune teller aunty! Pls tell me all u said are truth! I will marry chang min la!! HAHAHA!! OMG! Really can't wait man. Dew! Let's jia you la! We are now walking towards them, i know very hard, but really nvm, if only i can stand beside them forever, how hard i will give a try man HAHAA!!! :)



OKOK! Omg! tired dead meat wanna sleep liao~ to be continue ok? So sorry for the short update~ :(